The End of My Usefulness

[Age]

“The road to hell is paved with good intentions.”

On the other hand...

My kid is 18 today. It's one of those watersheds with all the associated hoopla. I wonder, have I done right by him? I like to think so.

Of course 'you' and 'all' adult human beings would 'like to think so'.

But, obviously the actual Truth is not what you, personally nor all, would 'like to think'.

Raising him up has been an honor and privilege, and my life would surely be poorer had he not been central to it.

Why do you call 'it' 'your kid'?

Is 'it' 'actually yours'?

In fact, did 'it' come from 'the sperm' in 'that body' "henry quirk"?

I can't imagine anything else I might have done for the past 18 years that can match, joy for joy & heartache for heartache, having a hand in bringing him up.

What could have possibly been a so-called 'heartache', to you, just 'rearing' a human child "henry quirk"?

And, of course, all that is selfish, self-referential. His day, and life, aren't mine to take pleasure from, be comforted by, or take credit for.

At best, I steered him in the right directions, but he unfolded as only he could, in the way only he could.

I've been a witness, and -- as he allowed -- a guide, and not one thing more.

So: intentions, intent. As you say, there's a road paved with the good ones. I can only wait to see where mine land me.

Till then: I can only be immensely proud of the young man my kid made of himself, and mebbe mourn, just a little, the coming end of my usefulness as his caretaker.

Do you notice any contradictions or inconsistencies here?

[Fairy]

'you're' = 'you are'

You are useful. You are empty, you are full.

You are the I AM

I AM that, I am. And so are you. You are.

YOUR = OUR

OUR = RE -YOU = YOU'RE

Oh shut up you insane twat.

No one cares.

This insane delusion is so hard to resist though, I know.
Stop it at once.

[Age]

This is precisely why i don't have any childrens. I couldn't possibly handle seeing my son aged 18 leave the nest and go off to college or whatever. He's standing there in the driveway with his duffle bags. His friends blow the horn and shout 'c'mon, prom jr, we gotta go!' 'Well dad i guess this is it', my boy says to me. I reach forward, ruffle his bangs and put my hand on his shoulder. 'U know your mom wants to turn your room into a second study but what if u come back or wanna visit or....' 'Dad, it's okay. It's not like I'm leaving the country.' 'Yeah i guess you're right. Maybe I'm just being a little too...'

*horn blows again*

'Dude, c'mon! Hey Mr. Prom75!'

'Hey, kids. Eddie put your seat belt on will ya? Well u better get going, son.'

'We can face time when i get to my room. U can help me set it up.'

'Sure, I'd like that. Well... alright tiger gimme a hug.'

'Dad... *gestures awkwardly toward friends*... can we just shake hands?'

'Oh, yeah, right. Okay be careful and I'll talk to you in a few hours.'

The car drives off and i hear their joyful chatter fade away, a silence enveloping me as i stand alone in the driveway. My eye is caught by the tire swing. It hangs motionless in the silence.

Jesus i can't do this. What are u tryna do, henry, make me cry? Like I'm literally hot behind the eyes right now just writin that shit.

Talk about watching too many "american" movies.

[accelafine]

I've outlived my usefulness.

You're usefulness is purely in you're emptiness.

And vice versa.

You can discard the clutter that has filled up you're mind, only when you are willing to be empty.

No thing, nothing can outlive the usefulness Unborn, undying, un-manifest being.

[Age]

I've outlived my usefulness.

Are people "supposed to be useful" for some other purpose, Gary? Who sets that purpose?

Well, it would be nice if we weren't headed toward environmental collapse due to our own production of waste.

Well, you adult human beings would not caused a 'head on' towards an 'environmental collapse' because of your Truly unnecessary 'production of waste', if you were not so greedy and selfish to begin with.

But, whatever you do, do not admit that you are, personally and collectively, greedy and selfish, at all, let alone very and extremely. Then, whatever you do, do not accept and take any responsibility at all for any, nor all, of your Wrong doing/s. Then, do not do absolutely any thing to change, for the better, and especially not so for the very ones that you all say and claim to love and cherish, that is; children.

In other words, just keep on doing what you all are doing. Because what you are all doing is what is good, and right, right?

Apparently, God didn't make the world big enough to hold all of us and our trash. Another divine oversight.

That is it "gary childress" 'blame' something else, like for example, something as laughable, as 'the world' is not big enough, because 'we' just want to keep making more and more 'trash'.

you adult human beings are absolutely hilarious to watch, and observe, at times.

[Age]

Are people "supposed to be useful" for some other purpose, Gary? Who sets that purpose?

Well, it would be nice if...

Why don't you just answer the questions, Gary? I'm not being mean. I'm just helping you think through your assumptions here.

LOL This coming from one who just will not answer questions.

[Fairy]

I've outlived my usefulness.

You're usefulness is purely in you're emptiness.

And vice versa.

You can discard the clutter that has filled up you're mind, only when you are willing to be empty.

No thing, nothing can outlive the usefulness Unborn, undying, un-manifest being.

Try shutting up. No one cares. Don't say a word.

On the Internet Nobody knows you're a dog.

[Fairy]

Well, it would be nice if...

Why don't you just answer the questions, Gary? I'm not being mean. I'm just helping you think through your assumptions here.

LOL This coming from one who just will not answer questions.

LOL hahaha, that's funny and true.

For example, try asking the question to IC... where did you get the idea you are a Christian from? then watch him struggle as he tries to answer that question with an assumption. LOL

[Immanuel Can]

...try asking the question to IC... where did you get the idea you are a Christian from?

Nobody has asked me this. Are you asking me now?

From the Bible.

That was easy.

[Fairy]

...try asking the question to IC... where did you get the idea you are a Christian from?

Nobody has asked me this. Are you asking me now?

From the Bible.

That was easy.

Where did the author of the Bible get the idea there is a 'you' who is a Christian?

See, how easy it is, yes, it's piss easy to make any old shit up, yes I agree.

[Immanuel Can]

...try asking the question to IC... where did you get the idea you are a Christian from?

Nobody has asked me this. Are you asking me now?

From the Bible.

That was easy.

Where did the author of the Bible get the idea there is a 'you' who is a Christian?

I don't even understand the question, I must confess. I guess you can either explain it, or...well, whatever.

[Fairy]

Nobody has asked me this. Are you asking me now?

From the Bible.

That was easy.

Where did the author of the Bible get the idea there is a 'you' who is a Christian?

I don't even understand the question, I must confess. I guess you can either explain it, or...well, whatever.

Yeah, whatever the whatever is when I only think I have understood what I can never understand.

The obvious default position. Indeed, the time has come when the wise are deemed mad and the mad are deemed wise.

Just keep deep diving further and further down the rabbit hole to nowhere.

[Immanuel Can]

Where did the author of the Bible get the idea there is a 'you' who is a Christian?

I don't even understand the question, I must confess. I guess you can either explain it, or...well, whatever.

Yeah, whatever the whatever is when I only think I have understood what I can never understand.

I have no idea what you just tried to say. Have a nice day.

[henry quirk]

Good job, and well said!

Thank you, sir!

I have to keep a little notebook of ages and birthdates just for ours).

I imagine, if I'm still around, I'll have to do the same when my kid has his own family. Already my memory is for crap.

[Fairy]

I don't even understand the question, I must confess. I guess you can either explain it, or...well, whatever.

Yeah, whatever the whatever is when I only think I have understood what I can never understand.

I have no idea what you just tried to say. Have a nice day.

Do you have any idea what you are trying to say?