I'm sure God loves you, IC. I'm sure you'll go to this heaven you seek. However, we believe in different things, IC. I want to fill my heart with the love of a good woman and you want to fill yours with the love of God. To each his own. I think Marcus Aurelius' quote from Phyllo sums things up adequately. As long as we aren't running around causing serious injustices, then I see no reason to worry about God's acceptance of me or not unless he is an unjust God. Why should God care if I believe in/worship him or not? What is he going to do, send me to hell? I haven't done anything seriously wrong in this world. There are much greater criminals out there, bigger fish to fry. I would assume God should be more concerned with them and not so much with a lonely, lovestruck daydreamer. I feel like you are trying to incriminate me in spite of an otherwise good track record.Immanuel Can wrote: ↑Sat Jan 21, 2023 3:58 pmNot to be a mere mortal. To have something beyond the womb and the tomb to live for.Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Jan 21, 2023 1:31 pm IC. I think you're a good person and if God loves anyone, then he should probably love you. Me, I don't think I could love God if my soul depended on it (and maybe it does). I'm too wrapped up in this world, too focused on things I'm missing or have missed out on in this life. I can't think of anything that would make me happier than to be with a woman who loves me and who I can love and, then, in the end, die a reasonably painless death (perhaps suddenly in my sleep). What more could a mortal wish for?
Be a realist about this, Gary. What are your prospects for those things you're grasping for, given your age, situation and stage of life? How's it all going to play out, all things being equal? Are you going to find those things, exceed your past happiness in those things, and find them infinitely satisfying as you slide past middle age into your older years? Can an adult play video games forever, and find his soul filled?
I'm not trying to discourage you, Gary, though I know that thought will. I'm trying to make you stare reality in the face, and take realistic steps to make your life better. It is not for no reason that Jesus asked us, "What shall it profit a man, if he gains the whole world and loses his own soul?"
Today, you get video games and indiscriminate sexual gratification; tomorrow, you get aging, decline, irrelevance to more and more of the world, and (you hope) eventually a painless death. Where does it all take you, Gary? Are you really so enthused about that prospect that you can't bring yourself to wish for anything better...like meaning, purpose, significant activities, doing social good, forming a stable relationship, gaining mental clarity, a death that matters and a far better life to follow?
It's up to you, of course. But is it possible you've put the bar of your expectations far, far too low?
As far as the prospects for finding a good woman, I don't know if it's "realistic" or not. If I don't find one, then at least the quest for it fills me with purpose and keeps me out of trouble for the most part. I play fair and stay out of trouble. That should be sufficient for any God worthy of worship. To be honest, ever since I tried out Christianity I've had nothing but grief. Grief over not being good enough for God. I regret making the mistake of introducing myself to it. It seems more like a pathology or illness. I'd rather find a more agreeable outlet for spirituality. I have other interests than relentlessly reading a 2000-year-old book looking for guidance on what to do.