Yes, but I could never be aware I was aware of being in that state…so that’s what I mean by the “ not being “ state does not exist, in the sense it could be known to exist.
Do you understand?
The only state that can be known to exist is the conscious state.
I personally would have liked to have never been born, by that I mean never having known anything at all.
That’s what I mean.
Being consciously aware is to know through knowledge….to know the meaning of indifference you need knowledge, you need to be aware….but for someone who has never been born or made aware, there is no one to know indifference…so indifference cannot apply to “ not being” can it?
I don’t know if I’m making myself clear, but I do try.
Indifference has nothing to do with shutting yourself off from the world into a non existent state like you have proposed….indifference is just accepting life as it comes and not favouring one thing more than another over appearances that I have no control over anyway….for example….I am happy to carry on living, and I’m equally happy to drop dead any moment, I do not have any preferences because what happens to me I have no control over, so I just allow things to be, by being indifferent…..and to be indifferent I need to know I exist.
So I do not agree with you when you say things like indifference means to “not be” …that statement means nothing to me, it makes no sense to say that…for reasons I’ve just explained.