IC, I've been severely depressed since I was very young. I was an outsider to most of my peers for most of my life except for a relatively brief exception direclty after graduating from High School. However, that brief exception was brought to a crushing end by a sudden onset of psychosis. I've been having psychoses every now and then ever since that first psychosis about 25 years ago. I can't get off medicine as a result.Immanuel Can wrote: ↑Fri Apr 07, 2023 7:34 pmOn the contrary, it seems obvious to me why some people choose that. But rationality, logic, evidence...these things do not give them any slack on that. The very things they claim to appeal to are exactly what condemn their view as contradictory.Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 07, 2023 7:16 pm You don't seem to be able to understand why anyone would be atheist,
Me? No.God (or else some magical being that chose to present itself to you and claim to be the creator of everything) has chosen to reveal himself (or itself) to you. Aren't you special?
But He is.
Look at what you're doing right now, Gary...arguing stridently with a Theist. Arguing without evidence, proof or logic, as well. It's almost like there's a thing you are just determined not to believe...
But if what I have told you is true, then you've been told. And one thing you can never say to God is, "You never tried to reach me."
Ironic. He's very much in mine. Happy Easter, by the way...what is this weekend about, again?...my experience says a "benevolent" God is out of the equation.A benevolent God is impossible, you say: and yet He sent His Son to die to save you, and on Easter, raised Him to prove the way to God is wide open to you.
I wonder, then, how much benevolence God would have to show in order to vouchsafe his good intentions toward you. I really have to think that, given your disposition, there would never be any evidence sufficient to change your mind. So if it's to change, you'll have to change it yourself, I guess.
Between the effects of medicine and the fact that apathy, emotional flatness, and lack of interest in things that used to interest me are conspicuously common among people with severe mental illnesses like mine. Life has not been very enjoyable for me. Sometimes it even the case that simply enduring life takes a lot of effort on my part.
Depression isn't fun. And now when I talk to some of my peers who don't have mental illness, I find that they consider me a 'failure'--though they seldom come forth and say it bluntly. But they blame me for my own problems, just so they don't have to feel "luckier" or more "privileged" than me. I suppose I'd feel the same way if I were in their shoes and felt a need to justify my privilege, so I can't really blame them in any casae.
They consider me a failure in part because I'm not much of a player at all in society. I'm lucky to have found a relatively unique job that I can do reasonably competently. It's never going to transition into seriously gainful employment. I'm lonely, and I'm not what most women want, for reasons I can fully understand. Being able to fully understand why women don't want me doesn't help my mood either. The only women who want me are the few who can't find anyone better because few other men want them for whatever reason that usually becomes apparent to me after getting to know them, if not immediately upon meeting them.
Add something else to that pile, IC. There are people out there who are in much worse shape even than I am. And people better off than me will do as you do and point to them and try to guilt me for feeling bad for myself because there are far poorer people who have it worse than I do and you don't want to hear from someone who's maybe had harder luck than you any more than any other fortunate person does.
If you can't turn the hopeless into "other cheek turning" Christians, then you'd rather not hear from us, lest your tranquility and peace of mind is spoiled--and your fragile belief that in a world full of suffering and pain, there is a "benevolent" God to whom you can turn and be guaranteed whatever favors or lenient treatment or whatever. I see it all the time in some people. I'm used to it and I've become able to read it pretty well right away.
The world has made me cynical, IC. I don't see too much good in it. Sorry about that. You're welcome to believe what you want. I assume I'm welcome to look at what I see and judge it rationally and as accurately as I am able based on the picture that has manifested in front of at my particular vantage point.
We'll both just have to live with each other, I guess. I'll have to accept that God has (according to you) revealed himself to you and you'll just have to accept that God hasn't done so to me. You can hypothesize whatever reason you want for why God chose you and not me. I don't care at this point. If there's a God, then I'll be happy just to be awarded oblivion, rather than suffer in hell or have to deal with all the arrogant, haughty people I've met who seem to believe they're going to "heaven" for whatever great deeds they claim to have done. Far be it from me to spoil their ride. But it's hard to accomplish any "great" deeds depressed and medicated most of the time. So maybe I just suck and deserve my fate because I'm a "slacker" or something.
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