As I go through life I am convinced that life is 2% what happens to us and 98% our attitude upon it.
What this means to me is that my approach to life has an overwhelming real effect upon what may be an actual occurrence. That what may be occurring to my experience is based within my attitude. What that 'actual' experience may be, that is, what is 'out there' allowing me to come upon objects and events, I have little to no ability to get at. I am dentermining what it means for my life.
And this is not a hope or some psychological game I play with some actual brain centered 'actual' manifestation, as if my body and brain are actually a thing 'out there' that is not my self, to be considered as determining what and how I am. As if if I may know this actual thing that manifests what actually may be my self against what I am currently think I, or my self, may be.
And this is not a truth of 'actual' progress because as I assert a progress I am 'stablizing' or 'making inert' or 'foreclosing' some terms. I make them the basis upon which I propose other terms as true. I say 'this wall it actually true' and then I can propose what a road may be and what a nieghborhood, or a brick. In this way I deny that I am creating a scheme of knowledge situated in a particular way, a particular form, upon which I identify my self as being. But all these forms are merely the situation, the 'scaffolding' of knowledge upon which I have built my reality.
No; this is not a hope that detaches from my experience the reality that I am coming upon at any moment. It is the absolute attachment of my experience with that which I come upon in experience, such that I do not avoid my self for the sake of the hope of what I am or should be.
I am not discounting what you sob are saying of an actual absolute truth; but I am saying that it is a futile discussion in that way, for all one concludes is 'truth is'.
In so much as I say 'belief', I am denying my experience for the sake of the truth of what I say. I discount my 'uncomfortable' existence; I wish to do away with the things in life that are causing me discomfort; I hope that through addressing these 'things' out there that I might find my self content within my self.
As I say I beiieve and allow an 'actual' thing of anothers 'beiief' within this 'actual' universe, I call that humility, but I am really proposing my arrogance upon that other in that I am separating my self from my self, and holding the object of my self as greater than that 'other who believes' because I am humble, more willing and thus ethically superior to that other because my sufferring is so much and yet I humbly allow it in my struggle against it, as some natural law - for the sake of being able to glorify my suffering self, my objecthood, against the 'actual' alien, violent, conflict of asserting objects.
This is a part of my experience. That I will not admit the totality of my experience, to that extent I see what I say as indicating various degrees of actuality, of reality, as if what some of what I say or others say may be more or less true against that actually true object. Then instead of seeing that what I say and encounter evidences the only truth that can be known, I see what I say as 'hoping' for the truth, denying what truth may be in the empty space between the assertion and hope.
Ahhhh; that was cathartic.
