Gary's Corner

[Gary Childress]

So, God...which one is going to get us first? Nuclear obliteration, global climate change, a pandemic, an asteroid, super-intelligent AI gone rogue? I think we're pretty much sitting ducks for any of those. There's literally nothing we can do to prevent any of those events from happening. Everything is happening the way it will and was destined to happen. A serial killer is just as innocent (or else evil) as a saint because both were destined to be what they were and do what they did, and had no free choice in the matter. Morality is relative or else non-existent, a human fabrication that has no actual bearing on anything in the 'real' world.

Or maybe I'm just depressed again. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe I should double the Prozac tonight.

This world is a shit fest.

[edit: And I'm no more than a biological AI. Nothing special about us at all. Consciousness is a delusion or "folk psychology".]

[Gary Childress]

The delusion of human beings, that anything matters at all. This world is a joke.

[Gary Childress]

I think I might be headed toward a psychosis. I'm definitely feeling weirded out.

[Gary Childress]

Or maybe they're not "psychoses" at all. Maybe they're reality. Maybe I really am living in some sort of AI matrix. Trapped forever in an absurd reality. Eternal suffering. Eternal damnation.

Because I didn't worship God or view Christ as my savior or something.

Gee maybe if I were a serial killer, I would be rewarded for it with sanity and a clear conscience?

Or maybe I am a serial killer. Maybe I've been living a double life that I am ignorant of because I have multiple personalities or something.

I give up. Life is pointless.

[accelafine]

I think I might be headed toward a psychosis. I'm definitely feeling weirded out.

Then get to a doctor you fucking weirdo.

[Gary Childress]

I think I might be headed toward a psychosis. I'm definitely feeling weirded out.

Then get to a doctor you fucking weirdo.

Yeah. I'm a "weirdo" because death scares the shit out of me and knowing that other people are dying thanks to my tax dollars makes me cringe beyond words. I should be in an asylum. This world is for serial killers and mass murderers or something. Fuck this world and the demon it rode in on. I want out.

[accelafine]

I think I might be headed toward a psychosis. I'm definitely feeling weirded out.

Then get to a doctor you fucking weirdo.

Yeah. I'm a "weirdo" because death scares the shit out of me and knowing that other people are dying thanks to my tax dollars makes me cringe beyond words. I should be in an asylum. This world is for serial killers and mass murderers or something. Fuck this world and the demon it rode in on. I want out.

So do a lot of us. You are so self-absorbed it's unbearable. Go get some meds. Your mother deserves better.

[Gary Childress]

Then get to a doctor you fucking weirdo.

Yeah. I'm a "weirdo" because death scares the shit out of me and knowing that other people are dying thanks to my tax dollars makes me cringe beyond words. I should be in an asylum. This world is for serial killers and mass murderers or something. Fuck this world and the demon it rode in on. I want out.

So do a lot of us. You are so self-absorbed it's unbearable. Go get some meds. Your mother deserves better.

Thanks. I have plenty of meds. Maybe you'd like me to take them all. Maybe that would suit you.

[accelafine]

Yeah. I'm a "weirdo" because death scares the shit out of me and knowing that other people are dying thanks to my tax dollars makes me cringe beyond words. I should be in an asylum. This world is for serial killers and mass murderers or something. Fuck this world and the demon it rode in on. I want out.

So do a lot of us. You are so self-absorbed it's unbearable. Go get some meds. Your mother deserves better.

Thanks. I have plenty of meds. Maybe you'd like me to take them all. Maybe that would suit you.

Aren't they supposed to prevent psychosis? FFS. Get a grip. The way the world's heading we are all going out with a bang pretty soon.

[Gary Childress]

So do a lot of us. You are so self-absorbed it's unbearable. Go get some meds. Your mother deserves better.

Thanks. I have plenty of meds. Maybe you'd like me to take them all. Maybe that would suit you.

Aren't they supposed to prevent psychosis? FFS. Get a grip. The way the world's heading we are all going out with a bang pretty soon.

They aren't perfect. I still get psychoses from time to time, even on my meds.

[attofishpi]

Thanks. I have plenty of meds. Maybe you'd like me to take them all. Maybe that would suit you.

Aren't they supposed to prevent psychosis? FFS. Get a grip. The way the world's heading we are all going out with a bang pretty soon.

They aren't perfect. I still get psychoses from time to time, even on my meds.

Stop focussing on whatever crap pops into your head.

Simple fix = beer.

Thus, go to the nearest pub with a pool table.

1. Buy a pint of min 5% alcohol beer and play some of the locals at pool.

- repeat step 1 until you feel soothed and happy and have made at least 1 new friend within said pub.

[Gary Childress]

Aren't they supposed to prevent psychosis? FFS. Get a grip. The way the world's heading we are all going out with a bang pretty soon.

They aren't perfect. I still get psychoses from time to time, even on my meds.

Stop focussing on whatever crap pops into your head.

Simple fix = beer.

Thus, go to the nearest pub with a pool table.

1. Buy a pint of min 5% alcohol beer and play some of the locals at pool.

- repeat step 1 until you feel soothed and happy and have made at least 1 new friend within said pub.

Well, that sounds like good advice over all, however, I haven't been to pubs much since I was first diagnosed. I don't drink alcohol as it's not recommended by the medicines I'm on. Besides, I think alcohol is considered a "depressant," and I don't think I need to be any more depressed than I am naturally. I'm pretty sure that if I got drunk out of my gourd, I might do something rash like jump off a bridge or something. I remember drinking a lot of alcohol when in college (I was in a fraternity), and I used to get morbidly depressed by the end of a night.

[attofishpi]

They aren't perfect. I still get psychoses from time to time, even on my meds.

Stop focussing on whatever crap pops into your head.

Simple fix = beer.

Thus, go to the nearest pub with a pool table.

1. Buy a pint of min 5% alcohol beer and play some of the locals at pool.

- repeat step 1 until you feel soothed and happy and have made at least 1 new friend within said pub.

Well, that sounds like good advice over all, however, I haven't been to pubs much since I was first diagnosed. I don't drink alcohol as it's not recommended by the medicines I'm on. Besides, I think alcohol is considered a "depressant," and I don't think I need to be any more depressed than I am naturally. I'm pretty sure that if I got drunk out of my gourd, I might do something rash like jump off a bridge or something. I remember drinking a lot of alcohol when in college (I was in a fraternity), and I used to get morbidly depressed by the end of a night.

Mmm, my analysis requires more information.

Tell me everything you ate and drank yesterday and approximate times of intake of these forms of matter.

[Gary Childress]

So...maybe I'm being an arrogant, utopian, megalomaniac. Don't listen to anything I say, just laugh or nod your head and pretend I said something relevant to reality.

[Gary Childress]

I wish I knew the truth, but then, maybe I really don't want to know the truth. Will the truth "set me free" or will it be too horrible to face?