No One Can Break Your Heart

[accelafine]

I knew very early on that our physical encounter was always going to be about a shared and consensual desire for sex, and that it wasn’t going to be anything else.
It was lust at first sight, and that was all there was to it.




What do you mean by saying there was only one encounter? Please elaborate.

You wrote 'encounter' singular, not plural.

Ok, yeah I did, it’s because I’m illiterate, dyslexic and have poor writing skills and grammar.

We had many encounters. I’ve already stated here before Harbal and I encountered each other for two years.

Ok. That makes sense then.

[Fairy]

Only Harbal knows the truth about my personal character, not you, nor anyone else on this forum.

Now that you have resumed your contact with each other, obviously because you are so concerned about his welfare, you can find out the actual truth about my character, you can now ask him what I’m really like in real life and see if it matches with your own projected model representation of me.

I don't care.

And he is too much of a gentleman to trash you or go into it (and I didn't ask). Which absolutely fits with the personality of the Harbal I've experienced.

I'm honestly glad that you two had a good time together. We should all have good times with each other when we can.

I'm sorry you are so worked up about this. Tomorrow will be a new day, and you'll have a new personality to go with it. Everything is okay.

You obviously do care or you wouldn’t have addressed any of this conversation. You’d have just ignored it all as the usual fairy drama and ignored it all. But you cared enough to involve yourself in the drama. You wanted to defend Harbal and trash me.

Without even knowing the actual truth about what went wrong with our relationship.

You don’t know anyone until you live with them. Of course Harbal is going to show you his gentle side. But have you seen his not so gentle side, have you?

I have.

Let’s just say men will sweet talk any woman into bed with them, it’s just what men do.

[Lacewing]

You might be still getting along. But he’s a liar. Don’t you understand what I’m trying to tell you, people get along but they’ll only show you the side of them that they want you to see. They hide their shadow side. I’m not that kind of person, I show both my dark and light side to people, I’m not ashamed of who I am.

Well, let's see... he has been consistent with me... while you repeatedly bounce off the walls in contradictory directions. He's fun and easy to talk to... while you are emotional work. Your view of him being a liar has not been my experience... so would I ignore my experience for your emotional accusations? He is free to frame things however he feels at the time in any circumstance, but my experience of him is that he is a kind and consistent person when he and I interact. We genuinely care for each other's happiness and well-being. Do you want me to hate him? Seriously, how far will your bitterness propel you? You don't deserve that... and neither do we.

[accelafine]

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[Lacewing]

Only Harbal knows the truth about my personal character, not you, nor anyone else on this forum.

Now that you have resumed your contact with each other, obviously because you are so concerned about his welfare, you can find out the actual truth about my character, you can now ask him what I’m really like in real life and see if it matches with your own projected model representation of me.

I don't care.

You obviously do care or you wouldn’t have addressed any of this conversation.

I don't care about your character or what happened between you and Harbal.

As I said, I'm glad you guys connected. I'm sorry you're apparently so unhappy about it now.

But you cared enough to involve yourself in the drama. You wanted to defend Harbal and trash me.

You're spewing private details and accusations on a PUBLIC forum! Are you telling me that you don't want to PLAY? I found the whole thing rather ridiculously funny and entertaining to engage with.

This is not a court for Harbal.

Let’s just say men will sweet talk any woman into bed with them

That's not likely to happen with me since I'm in a committed relationship. So why would Harbal waste his time with me? Evidently there's more to this than you are willing to consider or allow.

[Fairy]

You wrote 'encounter' singular, not plural.

Ok, yeah I did, it’s because I’m illiterate, dyslexic and have poor writing skills and grammar.

We had many encounters. I’ve already stated here before Harbal and I encountered each other for two years.

Ok. That makes sense then.

To be honest I wished now that I’d never agreed to take him on, when he pursued me. When he asked me if I wanted to hook up with him. I really wished I’d had the sense to say no. I regret it so much, because all it’s done for me is cause suffering and painful and hurtful feelings.

I just ended up wanting to hurt him the way I was hurting, so I chose to trash him on this forum. That makes me a rubbish person I know, but that’s just who I am. I’m quite a nasty person when it comes to dealing with men, mostly because men have messed with my emotions and treated me very badly all my life. It’s like I have this secret desire to want to hurt them. I’m definitely going to hell, but who cares, it’s not something I am not familiar with. It’s just my life general. Nothing that shocks me anymore.

[accelafine]

Ok, yeah I did, it’s because I’m illiterate, dyslexic and have poor writing skills and grammar.

We had many encounters. I’ve already stated here before Harbal and I encountered each other for two years.

Ok. That makes sense then.

To be honest I wished now that I’d never agreed to take him on, when he pursued me. When he asked me if I wanted to hook up with him. I really wished I’d had the sense to say no. I regret it so much, because all it’s done for me is cause suffering and painful and hurtful feelings.

I just ended up wanting to hurt him the way I was hurting, so I chose to trash him on this forum. That makes me a rubbish person I know, but that’s just who I am. I’m quite a nasty person when it comes to dealing with men, mostly because men have messed with my emotions and treated me very badly all my life. It’s like I have this secret desire to want to hurt them. I’m definitely going to hell, but who cares, it’s not something I am not familiar with. It’s just my life general. Nothing that shocks me anymore.

[Lacewing]

He's been publicly trashed on here before by a woman. Actually I think he deserves it. That's my opinion.

EVERYBODY has been trashed on here.

From the O.P.:

You can only break your own heart.

[Lacewing]

To be honest I wished now that I’d never agreed to take him on, when he pursued me.

.../...

I regret it so much, because all it’s done for me is cause suffering and painful and hurtful feelings.

Earlier... in another Universe...

The only nirvana I’ve been blessed to experience in this earthly physical life was when Harbal and I made love

.../...

I’m so grateful for ever being able to experience this beauty in my life time.

[Fairy]

I don't care.

You obviously do care or you wouldn’t have addressed any of this conversation.

I don't care about your character or what happened between you and Harbal.

As I said, I'm glad you guys connected. I'm sorry you're apparently so unhappy about it now.

But you cared enough to involve yourself in the drama. You wanted to defend Harbal and trash me.

You're spewing private details and accusations on a PUBLIC forum! Are you telling me that you don't want to PLAY? I found the whole thing rather ridiculously funny and entertaining to engage with.

This is not a court for Harbal.

Let’s just say men will sweet talk any woman into bed with them

That's not likely to happen with me since I'm in a committed relationship. So why would Harbal waste his time with me? Evidently there's more to this than you are willing to consider or allow.

Stop lying to yourself,You wanted to hurt me.

You were absent from the forum for over a year. Then when you came back the first post you entered was about the Harbal and Fairy drama. You could have posted anything but you desperately wanted to indulge your curiosity with the drama, you could have just left it all in the past, let it go, but no, you deliberately wanted to bring it all into the present.

And now you are trying to tell me you don’t care about my character or what happened between me and Harbal. But then you obviously do care and is why you resumed your contact with him. Why would you bother if you didn’t care?

Now you are telling me the Harbal and fairy drama was all a ridiculous funny entertainment for you. That’s obviously something that entertains you, indulging in other people’s misery. You only contacted him because you wanted to entertain yourself again. Poor Harbal, how dare anyone hurt poor precious Harbal. You had to check in on him to see if he was he ok, as if he was some kind of defenceless child, when he’s actually a fully grown adult. But you just had to soothe him after that awful ordeal I put him through.

[Fairy]

To be honest I wished now that I’d never agreed to take him on, when he pursued me.

.../...

I regret it so much, because all it’s done for me is cause suffering and painful and hurtful feelings.

Earlier... in another Universe...

The only nirvana I’ve been blessed to experience in this earthly physical life was when Harbal and I made love

.../...

I’m so grateful for ever being able to experience this beauty in my life time.

Like I said earlier. The sex was great. Yes, after I regrettably chose to agree to hook up with him, which I later regretted for reasons I’ve already explained to you.

I wished I’d never met him. But I did meet him. And I’m so blessed to have experienced the beauty that was our sex together.

That’s all I’m saying. It’s just one of those bittersweet experiences I suppose, I guess you don’t really understand, you just want to poke fun at it because it obviously entertains you.

[Fairy]

I guess I just love flirting with disaster. I won’t ever do it again though, great sex is never worth the squeeze. I’m just a gratification junky like most adults are.

[Lacewing]

Stop lying to yourself,You wanted to hurt me.

You were absent from the forum for over a year. Then when you came back the first post you entered was about the Harbal and Fairy drama. You could have posted anything but you desperately wanted to indulge your curiosity with the drama, you could have just left it all in the past, let it go, but no, you deliberately wanted to bring it all into the present.

And now you are trying to tell me you don’t care about my character or what happened between me and Harbal. But then you obviously do care and is why you resumed your contact with him. Why would you bother if you didn’t care?

Now you are telling me the Harbal and fairy drama was all a ridiculous funny entertainment for you. That’s obviously something that entertains you, indulging in other people’s misery. You only contacted him because you wanted to entertain yourself again. Poor Harbal, how dare anyone hurt poor precious Harbal. You had to check in on him to see if he was he ok, as if he was some kind of defenceless child, when he’s actually a fully grown adult. But you just had to soothe him after that awful ordeal I put him through.

That's a big, twisted mess from your imagination.

[Fairy]

Ok. That makes sense then.

To be honest I wished now that I’d never agreed to take him on, when he pursued me. When he asked me if I wanted to hook up with him. I really wished I’d had the sense to say no. I regret it so much, because all it’s done for me is cause suffering and painful and hurtful feelings.

I just ended up wanting to hurt him the way I was hurting, so I chose to trash him on this forum. That makes me a rubbish person I know, but that’s just who I am. I’m quite a nasty person when it comes to dealing with men, mostly because men have messed with my emotions and treated me very badly all my life. It’s like I have this secret desire to want to hurt them. I’m definitely going to hell, but who cares, it’s not something I am not familiar with. It’s just my life general. Nothing that shocks me anymore.

He's been publicly trashed on here before by a woman. Actually I think he deserves it. That's my opinion.

I didn’t know that.

But I’m glad because his obvious aim here was to be as sardonic as possible anything for a cheap laugh, he wasn’t really interested in proper serious philosophy.

The thing is, I’m good at what I do, I’m not a half hearted person. I’m going to do a job well if I think it’s worth doing, that includes giving a man good sex, or giving a man a good public thrashing. It’s all the same art to me. I’m just a perfectionist.

I’m unapologetically what I am, and I’m just so proud to be me.

[Fairy]

Stop lying to yourself,You wanted to hurt me.

You were absent from the forum for over a year. Then when you came back the first post you entered was about the Harbal and Fairy drama. You could have posted anything but you desperately wanted to indulge your curiosity with the drama, you could have just left it all in the past, let it go, but no, you deliberately wanted to bring it all into the present.

And now you are trying to tell me you don’t care about my character or what happened between me and Harbal. But then you obviously do care and is why you resumed your contact with him. Why would you bother if you didn’t care?

Now you are telling me the Harbal and fairy drama was all a ridiculous funny entertainment for you. That’s obviously something that entertains you, indulging in other people’s misery. You only contacted him because you wanted to entertain yourself again. Poor Harbal, how dare anyone hurt poor precious Harbal. You had to check in on him to see if he was he ok, as if he was some kind of defenceless child, when he’s actually a fully grown adult. But you just had to soothe him after that awful ordeal I put him through.

That's a big, twisted mess from your imagination.

Life is messy, grow up. There’s only two jobs to do in life. 1 make a mess. 2 clean up the mess.

That’s all folks. Stop living in fantasy land. Get real, and never stop believing that other people are only ever using you for their own selfish self gratification. People are addicted to their inner whore natures. Fact.