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Darkneos wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 2:45 am So...I'm overwhelmed and literally out of options and people to ask so I'll try here.
Hello Darkneos my old friend..... :) (Just popped into my head from 'The Sounds of Silence')

You are very well-spoken and 'ordered'... and you're engaging with 'us', whatever we are... and we don't fucking know either... so I guess we're all in this dream together, whatever it is... and we're floating around doing the best we can.

Love as much as you can from wherever you are.

Have you read 'The Lazy Man's Guide to Enlightenment' by Thaddeus Golas?
Very short little book with some interesting tidbits for thought. They've stuck with me throughout the years.
Here's an online version (check out the Contents to see what it's about): https://0ducks.wordpress.com/wp-content ... -golas.pdf
Maybe there's something in there that you can use.

Also, I think about this...

When we were little kids, full of wonder for the world, none of this stuff mattered... and we still had a fun time and enjoyed the adventure, yes? Adult humans have convoluted and distorted so much stuff... making themselves crazy! Perhaps we can tap back into the basic and natural and beautiful vibe that we came into this world with. Joy... excitement... about what we can discover and create in this vast unknown/unknowable landscape. And love for nature, which we are clearly part of! People make themselves and others crazy by fracturing humans away from nature. That's like ripping us apart from our essence!

I think everything is in an energetic flow... and it's OKAY! When I relax into the flow, I experience 'magic' and perfection.

It doesn't matter WHAT all of this is. We take ourselves too seriously. We can be part of this dream and LOVE the other elements of the dream. The other elements can appear to love us back... that's wonderful, isn't it?

I'm sending love to whatever you are from whatever I am.
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Re: How to deal (in terms of life)

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Atla wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 9:54 am
Darkneos wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 8:24 am
Atla wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 6:17 am
As usual I blame Kant. On the most fundamental level, solipsism can't be disproven, but nor can anything else ever be fully disproven. There is always some inherent uncertainty.

But aside from the inherent uncertainty in everything, when we look at what we CAN know, solipsism seems almost certainly bollocks. So I assign probabilities to things, how likely they are to be true.

Solipsism for me goes in the <5% category, along with other random stuff we have absolutely no evidence for, like brain in a vat, simulated universe, an evil demon deceiving me etc. And then I just forget about the <5% category.

I just exclude things from my thinking that we have absolutely no evidence for, like solipsism. There can be an infinite amount of random ideas that we have absolutely no evidence for.
That's...actually a pretty healthy way of looking at stuff like that. I know every now and then people try to throw something like that at me and I get two feelings. One is just "whatevs" and I roll my eyes, the other is...well fear and paranoia.

Maybe it's a self esteem/confidence problem, I hang on everyone else's every word because I think they know better, know something I don't, have a secret to reality that upends everything I know, some hidden truth, etc. You get what I mean?

I remember staying up all night in elementary school because some kid convinced me that Death was gonna come for me and that he was gonna try to stop it. I guess...I never really matured past that.

Though, and I'm really sorry about this (I can't stop my brain from going there), when it comes to ideas with no evidence for my mind goes back to the stuff at the top in my original post. Stuff about the self gets me because then I'm not sure how to treat people (just to give one example). And then there is the external reality and other people existing or not...(not saying I think other people don't exist or that there isn't an external reality, but the old wounds of solipsism haven't healed...)

And what the dude said about planes and people. I think what he meant is that anything beyond the standard model is just the "mind projection fallacy" (which I don't think is a real fallacy) and not the territory. He likes to throw around the map not being the territory and he applies that to stuff like planes and people, etc (because they're just patterns of atoms and not independently existing things, but that sounds...wonky to me, like REALLY managed form of Buddhism or something, even process philosophy put it better).

And it goes back to what you said about the dimensions and stuff, that's still gnawing in my mind. I know you said it doesn't matter and to forget about it but...I can't. Is that really true or is it just a personal stance?
Nah you already know more than most people, that's why they have simple confident answers - they don't even know about most of the stuff that's bothering you, many of them couldn't even grasp it even if they tried.

The dimensions stuff is of course just my favourite QM philosophical interpretation, it's Occam razor-friendly. Literally no one (including Nobel prize winners in physics) knows what the correct full interpretation of QM is. And it's quite possible that we will never know. So people come up with dozens, hundreds, thousands of different interpretations. This real/unreal business is just another interpretation.

My advice would be to learn to block out stuff we have no evidence for. Sometimes it helps to write out these things on paper using a pen or something, to help the hemispheres communicate with each other.
I appreciate the vote of confidence but I fear you are overestimating my ability here. I have HEARD of a lot of things and read a bunch of different stuff people have said, but as for understanding it...I have no idea. In all honestly...I don't even know why I'm reading most of what I read. It's rooted in insecurity, not curiosity.

I feel like I would be lesser for not knowing any of this stuff, but the weird thing is that even after reading everything I've read I can't really say it made much difference in my life. Like...nothing really changed (apart from my poor mental state) but I still have to eat, work, etc, all that stuff, so what was it all for? More to the point...what is the end goal of such a pursuit?

A thought came into my head, when I was in paranoia about being wrong, about this. I was so obsessed with being right and "living in the truth" and all that but then I thought "and what will do you once you have the truth"? And I had no answer. I was like the dog who caught the car and had no idea what to do next. I am so obsessed, so fixated on "being right" that there is no room for anything else in my life, it's a poison that's slowly killing me.

If you've seen Vinland Saga you'd understand (I won't spoil) but suffice to say it hit me hard for that reason.

It's even worse because I view getting help and getting better as choosing to live in ignorance with the masses, probably because that's the idea I grew up with. Getting help with mental health was seen as weakness or not being able to live in reality and having to choose ignorance. But...recently I'm seeing that makes no sense, equating wisdom and knowledge with pain. But yeah...I need serious help because I've got some pretty big issues mucking my head up, and now I'm wondering if it's the topics...

I think...I might check into a hospital, I can't keep going like this anymore, breaking down at the sight of every new thing I read.

Hearing you say that about the dimensions bit does help, and you might be right...we may never know. Not that I understood any of it when I read it. I tried to understand quantum physics and all of it flew over my head, then again regular physics did too when I was in college, embarrassingly. But hearing it's a personal take, one of many, does help me move on. Though yeah...I don't know anything to make a call about it either way. I just hope I can let it go.

Though...I can still feel it gnawing at the back of my mind, along with the time stuff we talked about in that thread (I also didn't really understand it but it scared me a lot).

And I get that forgetting about stuff that we have no evidence for it good advice, but in my mind I might start twisting that to negate the things I like. Like if someone says they love me, or whether other people have feelings and are being honest, etc. It's sound advice, but I have a habit of twisting such things into a noose to hang myself with.

Or rather, if something isn't clear and direct then I assume the worst unless someone explicitly tells me it's NOT bad or doesn't mean the worst, things like that.

I guess...my main goal in life is just a life of peace and prosperity (not getting rich but enough to do what I would like to), keep it simple. Maybe Buddhism had some merit to it, I mean...Buddha never commented on metaphysics because it didn't matter nor much else besides just living, and I respect that.

Yeah...just living well and a life I like is my ultimate goal, not knowing "universal truth" or something like that. Well...that's my hope anyway.
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You seem to have a lot of concerns around Mereological Nihilism.

I suggest you look at it in a different way and consider the many levels at which any object can be described. The Mona Lisa is painted on wood. So is my garden fence, there is a reason why we don't confuse the two objects though. At another level of description, one is a work of art while the other just prevents one garden leading unobstructed into another- a job for which the Mona Lisa is manifestly not suited.
I don't know if it's that.
Is it not equally bad to be stuck with all the set of social constructs you grew up with for the rest of your life just because you absent-mindedly assumed they were "real"? Some of those social constructs are arguably bad, but we as a society construct them and then reconstruct them over and over again, which means they change through the mechanism of persuasion rather than experimental observation.

This forum is dominated by a handful of people who go into paroxysm when they are told that gender is such a construct. Race, justice and rights are others, and it really pisses people off to have to reconsider any of these things. Stand against those neo-traditionalists who can't see past the end of their grandad's childhood if you are really the guy who can see through this gossamer tissue of illusion.
Well it's more like the things I care about like friends and family, relationships, the hobbies I used to enjoy, movies, and stuff like that. I'm gay myself so I know what it's like to be outside of all that, but that's not what I mean.
It's a bad idea to experience philosophy and philosophical problems as real things. As Wittgenstein tells us ''Philosophy is a battle against the bewitchment of our intelligence by means of language.'' There are ways for philosophers to ask if the world exists that suggest we are capable of asking such a question usefully - try to always keep in mind that of course we cannot actually do that.
I'm not sure I understand what you mean by that.
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Looking at it all I think it might be best to get to a mental hospital and get the help I need.

I have a lurking suspicion that it might not be the thoughts themselves but some underlying problem. Either way, I need serious professional help.
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Darkneos wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 1:21 am Looking at it all I think it might be best to get to a mental hospital and get the help I need.

I have a lurking suspicion that it might not be the thoughts themselves but some underlying problem. Either way, I need serious professional help.
I can't quite put my finger on it so it's more like a guess, you could have a kind of psychosis that isn't caused by any thoughts in particular, but by an underlying biological issue where long-distance communication between your brain regions is breaking down for some reason. That can make the mind fragment, can lead to paranoia and endless repetitive rumination on thoughts that looks like obsession.
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Darkneos wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 1:21 am Looking at it all I think it might be best to get to a mental hospital and get the help I need.

I have a lurking suspicion that it might not be the thoughts themselves but some underlying problem. Either way, I need serious professional help.
Take care of yourself. Wishing you peace.
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Atla wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 4:27 am
Darkneos wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 1:21 am Looking at it all I think it might be best to get to a mental hospital and get the help I need.

I have a lurking suspicion that it might not be the thoughts themselves but some underlying problem. Either way, I need serious professional help.
I can't quite put my finger on it so it's more like a guess, you could have a kind of psychosis that isn't caused by any thoughts in particular, but by an underlying biological issue where long-distance communication between your brain regions is breaking down for some reason. That can make the mind fragment, can lead to paranoia and endless repetitive rumination on thoughts that looks like obsession.
I know it was caused by when I first came across solipsism, and well...I'd rather not remember it. I don't think I really ever recovered from that.

Well...actually it was the second time I came across it. The first time I heard about it and didn't really pay it much mind because I thought it was nonsense. The second time...I'm not really sure what happened, I just got wrecked. Had a break with reality and everything felt unreal...it sucked...hard.

It was the same with other ideas I've read, I mean I toyed with them a few times when I was a kid but never really obsessed over it or suffered paranoia or anything like that with them. Something...changed, and I don't know what it is but something did because there is a difference between then and now in how I react to them.

I never used to go to pieces like this, maybe it's the depression that got worse. I never properly treated it and thought I could power through it, which I see now was stupid, because you can't. So when it got worse I guess my mental faculties went with it, when I read up on the symptoms of it it was pretty much an exact match. It also would explain how EVERY new idea sent me to pieces, didn't matter what it said. Even the most innocuous thing was twisted to the worst outcome.

So I'm gonna swallow my pride and get help at a hospital, because it has gotten that bad and I can't do it alone. One thing I long for now is piece of mind...because I can't stop the rumination, even when I know it's not true or when I'm wrong I can't stop it or turn it off. I'm also sick of struggling to leave bed most days. And I'm tired of always assuming the worst possible thing even when it's evident people don't mean it that way. I'm sick and tired of it, of the noise...

PS: Did you get my PM?
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Darkneos wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 6:00 am Well...actually it was the second time I came across it. The first time I heard about it and didn't really pay it much mind because I thought it was nonsense. The second time...I'm not really sure what happened, I just got wrecked. Had a break with reality and everything felt unreal...it sucked...hard.

It was the same with other ideas I've read, I mean I toyed with them a few times when I was a kid but never really obsessed over it or suffered paranoia or anything like that with them. Something...changed, and I don't know what it is but something did because there is a difference between then and now in how I react to them.
Yes you seem to be describing the onset of psychosis, psychotic break. (Not the garden variety "psychosis" where someone has normal brain functioning but is developing some obsessive and nonsensical ideas, but the "biological" psychosis where your thinking can remain fairly normal but the brain functioning itself is going haywire.)

One thing you can also do is get tested for food allergies and foor sensitivities, and autoimmune problems, these can cause brain inflammation which can make biological psychosis worse or perhaps even cause it.
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Atla wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 6:29 am
Darkneos wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 6:00 am Well...actually it was the second time I came across it. The first time I heard about it and didn't really pay it much mind because I thought it was nonsense. The second time...I'm not really sure what happened, I just got wrecked. Had a break with reality and everything felt unreal...it sucked...hard.

It was the same with other ideas I've read, I mean I toyed with them a few times when I was a kid but never really obsessed over it or suffered paranoia or anything like that with them. Something...changed, and I don't know what it is but something did because there is a difference between then and now in how I react to them.
Yes you seem to be describing the onset of psychosis, psychotic break. (Not the garden variety "psychosis" where someone has normal brain functioning but is developing some obsessive and nonsensical ideas, but the "biological" psychosis where your thinking can remain fairly normal but the brain functioning itself is going haywire.)

One thing you can also do is get tested for food allergies and foor sensitivities, and autoimmune problems, these can cause brain inflammation which can make biological psychosis worse or perhaps even cause it.
I was tested for allergens and the panel came back pretty much clean, the only allergies I had was to cats but I got over that one. No autoimmune diseases or issues on my end either.

I just know that my thinking is...warped, and I can't stop it or will power it. Like every new thing I read I twist to be the worst and then hang myself with it, doesn't matter what it is. It's annoying, and even when I pause and ask myself "what are you doing" and I don't have an answer to that, I know that my reasoning and paranoia about whatever X new thing is isn't warranted, but I can't stop myself from it.
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Darkneos wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 2:45 am
2. Reductionism and whether everything is just boiled down to the basic quantum state and nothing else is real or exists:
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/tPqQdLC ... 2ki6sSvAxu
Like...if it really is just quantum particles and nothing else, that people, animals, planes, etc aren't "real" then...I don't really know. Am I lying when I make friends? When I feel love? Or sad, or anything? I don't understand.
If you read the full sequence on reductionism on that site, you'll eventually realize that what you said *isn't* what reductionism means. It doesn't mean "nothing else is real or exists".
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Well, it is called Suicide Poker. Dealers choice. Dealer shuffles the cards, player gets to cut the deck. I prefer a chain saw myself, ever cut a deck of cards with that?
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Flannel Jesus wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 9:43 pm
Darkneos wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 2:45 am
2. Reductionism and whether everything is just boiled down to the basic quantum state and nothing else is real or exists:
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/tPqQdLC ... 2ki6sSvAxu
Like...if it really is just quantum particles and nothing else, that people, animals, planes, etc aren't "real" then...I don't really know. Am I lying when I make friends? When I feel love? Or sad, or anything? I don't understand.
If you read the full sequence on reductionism on that site, you'll eventually realize that what you said *isn't* what reductionism means. It doesn't mean "nothing else is real or exists".
That's what it means though, especially suggesting there is no planes or wings or anything like that. It's right there, plus the comments throughout the site say the same thing, even arguing there are no people.

It is saying exactly what I am and I've seen other users echo him too.

It's pretty much everywhere on the site: https://www.lesswrong.com/s/6BFkmEgre7u ... pZH2hgz59x

The general response I get from people when Lesswrong comes up though is...well laughter because their views and thinking is (ironically enough) not rational.
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Flannel Jesus wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 9:43 pm
Darkneos wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 2:45 am
2. Reductionism and whether everything is just boiled down to the basic quantum state and nothing else is real or exists:
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/tPqQdLC ... 2ki6sSvAxu
Like...if it really is just quantum particles and nothing else, that people, animals, planes, etc aren't "real" then...I don't really know. Am I lying when I make friends? When I feel love? Or sad, or anything? I don't understand.
If you read the full sequence on reductionism on that site, you'll eventually realize that what you said *isn't* what reductionism means. It doesn't mean "nothing else is real or exists".
So as you can see he is saying nothing else is real or exists because there aren't additional entities like people and planes, etc.
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Darkneos wrote: Tue May 13, 2025 1:27 am
Flannel Jesus wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 9:43 pm
Darkneos wrote: Sat May 10, 2025 2:45 am
2. Reductionism and whether everything is just boiled down to the basic quantum state and nothing else is real or exists:
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/tPqQdLC ... 2ki6sSvAxu
Like...if it really is just quantum particles and nothing else, that people, animals, planes, etc aren't "real" then...I don't really know. Am I lying when I make friends? When I feel love? Or sad, or anything? I don't understand.
If you read the full sequence on reductionism on that site, you'll eventually realize that what you said *isn't* what reductionism means. It doesn't mean "nothing else is real or exists".
So as you can see he is saying nothing else is real or exists because there aren't additional entities like people and planes, etc.
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/cphoF8n ... ining-away

There are two ways to take reductionism - explaining vs explaining away.

Sure, SOME reductionists "explain away" everything. But that's not what all reductionism is about - sometimes, it's just about explaining.
I think that when physicists say "There are no fundamental rainbows," the anti-reductionists hear, "There are no rainbows."
You're hearing "there are no rainbows". Me personally? I don't hear that.
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Flannel Jesus wrote: Tue May 13, 2025 7:49 am
Darkneos wrote: Tue May 13, 2025 1:27 am
Flannel Jesus wrote: Sun May 11, 2025 9:43 pm

If you read the full sequence on reductionism on that site, you'll eventually realize that what you said *isn't* what reductionism means. It doesn't mean "nothing else is real or exists".
So as you can see he is saying nothing else is real or exists because there aren't additional entities like people and planes, etc.
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/cphoF8n ... ining-away

There are two ways to take reductionism - explaining vs explaining away.

Sure, SOME reductionists "explain away" everything. But that's not what all reductionism is about - sometimes, it's just about explaining.
I think that when physicists say "There are no fundamental rainbows," the anti-reductionists hear, "There are no rainbows."
You're hearing "there are no rainbows". Me personally? I don't hear that.
It's pretty explicit not only in the reductionism post I made but even in that post you cited. If anything he doesn't really make a strong case for implying such things don't exist, he spend a good portion of it explaining how myths aren't real but doesn't really make a distinction between explaining and explaining away.

You can even see the people in the comments are arguing what I am saying he's saying, which means he is saying they don't exist:
"Is "the world is full of people" an example of the mind-projection fallacy? (Compare to "we can both recognize the pattern 'person' at a high-level in our multi-leveled models of levelless reality")
"Why would it be? It's an ontological statement about the existence of many instances of what you have identified as persons. It doesn't attribute anything to them. And following your pseudotechnical jargon, why would you presume the pal you're speaking to ("we both recognize...") is nothing but another instance of this "pattern"? Your biased. You're exempting someone because you want them to be a person."
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