The Necessity of Contradiction

[Fairy]

I do not identity myself as religious or spiritual in the conventional sense of the words, as I believe these words have been bastardtized but rather at this point view my discipline of philosophical inquiry as a 'cultivation of awareness' and less of a pursuit of knowledge as knowledge has benefits but also limits.

I'm on this too, the awareness bit. Rather than the conceptualised identity, which is knowledge, since knowledge to me, is just an artificially manufactured mental construction of the brain that tries to make sense of why contradiction is necessary, and why there is a need to differentiate between the duality of observer and the observed, or, the thinker and the thought. And yes, I agree that these words or concepts are responsible for the bastardtization.

The brain, it seems, cannot tell the difference between what is real and what is unreal, because there is no inherent difference. Reality must both be real and unreal simultaneously, if duality is our only experience.

My approach is quite simple: I occur, these religions and philosophies occur, so what is the nature, if any, of the depths of these occurences?

For me, I see the nature is to play the game, and so without an action man, or avatar, there would be no player to play the game of life. And so without a player, there is no play, nothing would happen, nothing would occur. But occurrence is happening, and this occurrence is simply known, as and when it is being observed, as and through the lens of perception, and that's all the proof and evidence that is needed right there. I AM BEING without doubt or error, and could never not be.

Getting back on topic:

From a taoist perspective the mind merged with itself, within meditation, seems overlapped with this as well as some experiences of Christian and Sufi mystics.

Considering the fourth state is a voidness, not light, not dark, not Grey or any shade of color, and the voidness is the transparency through which things occur, what I read seems pretty close to what I am arguing and experienced. Again there is a language barrier on everyone's part, including my own.

Yes, I totally agree, as language acts as a barrier to what can only be directly experienced as an actuality, without saying a single word.