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[attofishpi]

Let me guess. One of your schizophrenic hallucinations? Your lack of self awareness is astonishing. Have you never connected the schizophrenia to your 'conversations' with 'god'? You don't think they just might have something to do with each other?

You always turn to bitter nasty ol' hag when men on the forum are talking to another lady upon the forum, strange that, jealousy is such a curse

As I've explained many times: The truth of the matter is that I diagnosed myself for the psychiatrist.

I finished up working for NEC in 2017 when I was forced out of work in the office - letters on my screen started scrambling and 'people' calling out "do art". So I quit. I needed to get the govnt off of my back forcing me to find another job so I decided to see a shrink.
I told the psychiatrist my story that started in 1997 and that I need a medical certificate to get the govt to give me money so I could work do this art that GOD\sage insisted I do.
I said to him do I need to see you and not just a psychologist, thus I am required to take pills to get a certificate? He said yes, govt requirement (the pills went down the toilet).
He said so you don't think there is anything mentally wrong with you, I said I KNOW there is nothing wrong with my Brian Brain but then define schizophrenia, maybe it's God screwing with people? He said so I have to put something on the certificate, shall I put schizophrenia - I said sure.
As I said I made a shed load of money out of it, I didn't real eyes I had two insurances with my two super funds!

Prior to the "diagnosis" I had been redrawing on my mortgage for living expenses. I said to God\sage I need money if you want me to do this art thang. A couple of days later there was a deposit of $4500 in my bank account with the transaction title BT Portfolio (BT is my true initials DO_U_BT?)

Frankly accelafine, you are an idiot.

[accelafine]

Let me guess. One of your schizophrenic hallucinations? Your lack of self awareness is astonishing. Have you never connected the schizophrenia to your 'conversations' with 'god'? You don't think they just might have something to do with each other?

You always turn to bitter nasty ol' hag when men on the forum are talking to another lady upon the forum, strange that, jealousy is such a curse

As I've explained many times: The truth of the matter is that I diagnosed myself for the psychiatrist.

I finished up working for NEC in 2017 when I was forced out of work in the office - letters on my screen started scrambling and 'people' calling out "do art". So I quit. I needed to get the govnt off of my back forcing me to find another job so I decided to see a shrink.
I told the psychiatrist my story that started in 1997 and that I need a medical certificate to get the govt to give me money so I could work do this art that GOD\sage insisted I do.
I said to him do I need to see you and not just a psychologist, thus I am required to take pills to get a certificate? He said yes, govt requirement (the pills went down the toilet).
He said so you don't think there is anything mentally wrong with you, I said I KNOW there is nothing wrong with my Brian Brain but then define schizophrenia, maybe it's God screwing with people? He said so I have to put something on the certificate, shall I put schizophrenia - I said sure.
As I said I made a shed load of money out of it, I didn't real eyes I had two insurances with my two super funds!

Prior to the "diagnosis" I had been redrawing on my mortgage for living expenses. I said to God\sage I need money if you want me to do this art thang. A couple of days later there was a deposit of $4500 in my bank account with the transaction title BT Portfolio (BT is my true initials DO_U_BT?)

Frankly accelafine, you are an idiot.

Oh for fuck sake. What a typical wank of a male response. As if I would care who a fat insane god-botherer like you talks to. You are all just words on a screen. It's simpering women who fawn over men who annoy me. The only women I have any respect for are man-hating radical feminists

God, you are so full of crap. Unbelievable. You don't think psychiatrists haven't heard that a million times before? They are trained to deal with loons like you who think they are 'pulling one over them'

Plus, you can't even get your story straight. You claim that you only told the psychiatrist that you talk to 'god' to get benefits, yet you really DO believe that you 'talk to god'. So which is it? Do you think he/she isn't going to cotton on to this??
And by the way, what you said to the psychiatrist is EXACTLY what a schizophrenic would say--a textbook case.
You are particularly dangerous because you don't think there's anything wrong with you, therefore you probably don't take your medication.

[attofishpi]

Plus, you can't even get your story straight. You claim that you only told the psychiatrist that you talk to 'god' to get benefits, yet you really DO believe that you 'talk to god'. So which is it? Do you think he/she isn't going to cotton on to this??

Not only are U an idiot with NO comprehension as to the true nature of REAL_IT_Y..but U clearly lack English comprehension skills.

I stated clearly that I saw a shrink merely to keep the government off of my back in forcing me to get a job, thus I could get a little dosh whilst doing the art that GOD\sage insisted I do.

How do U explain the BT Portfolio cash deposit into my bank account a couple of days after I asked GOD\sage for some money?

[accelafine]

Plus, you can't even get your story straight. You claim that you only told the psychiatrist that you talk to 'god' to get benefits, yet you really DO believe that you 'talk to god'. So which is it? Do you think he/she isn't going to cotton on to this??

Not only are U an idiot with NO comprehension as to the true nature of REAL_IT_Y..but U clearly lack English comprehension skills.

I stated clearly that I saw a shrink merely to keep the government off of my back in forcing me to get a job, thus I could get a little dosh whilst doing the art that GOD\sage insisted I do.

How do U explain the BT Portfolio cash deposit into my bank account a couple of days after I asked GOD\sage for some money?

Right. I'm sure a psychiatrist is going to diagnose schrizophrenia for a completely sane person just so that some random stranger can get govt. benefits. I'm sure he was happy to risk his career and livelihood just for you

[accelafine]

Imagine what those dangerous drugs would do to the mind of a sane person. What psychiatrist in his right mind would prescribe them for someone he didn't think was schizophrenic, or just put whatever his patient requested on a medical certificate? The whole thing is absurd, and if you weren't ACTUALLY insane then you would be able to see that yourself.

[attofishpi]

Idiot, I didn't state to the shrink that I was wanting free gov't dosh.(oh, I see u just made an edit) I stated merely that GOD was fucking with me, insisting I do art - scrambling text on my computer screen so I couldn't do my job etc..(and other warps of REAL_IT_Y) OF COURSE he was going to agree with me re putting schizophrenia on the certificate...he's a professional - he's not going to agree that GOD exists and is fucking with Brian's REALITY..duh!

Have U worked out an explanation for $4500 being deposited into my bank when I asked GOD/sage for some money - BT Portfolio (DO_U_BT)

[accelafine]

Idiot, I didn't state to the shrink that I was wanting free gov't dosh.(oh, I see u just made an edit) I stated merely that GOD was fucking with me, insisting I do art - scrambling text on my computer screen so I couldn't do my job etc..(and other warps of REAL_IT_Y) OF COURSE he was going to agree with me re putting schizophrenia on the certificate...he's a professional - he's not going to agree that GOD exists and is fucking with Brian's REALITY..duh!

Have U worked out an explanation for $4500 being deposited into my bank when I asked GOD/sage for some money - BT Portfolio (DO_U_BT)

What edit?

Oh wow, all of that sounds REALLY sane and normal. Take your meds before you harm yourself, or worse, someone else.

[attofishpi]

Oh wow, all of that sounds REALLY sane and normal. Take your meds before you harm yourself, or worse, someone else.

Meds? Y would I fuck with perfection with what amounts to man's experimental garbage? Like how they fucked my Mums nervous system to shreds with their ridiculous "treatment" meds for Parkinsons.

Again, explain how I got $4500 deposited into my bank account when I asked GOD\sage for some money to do the art they insisted: BT Portfolio transaction title.

[accelafine]

Oh wow, all of that sounds REALLY sane and normal. Take your meds before you harm yourself, or worse, someone else.

Meds? Y would I fuck with perfection with what amounts to man's experimental garbage? Like how they fucked my Mums nervous system to shreds with their ridiculous "treatment" meds for Parkinsons.

Again, explain how I got $4500 deposited into my bank account when I asked GOD\sage for some money to do the art they insisted: BT Portfolio transaction title.

More insanity. Why would you ask me such a moronic question? Why the f would I know anything about your bank accounts? Ugh. I can't stand insane people! They need to eff off back to the asylums they belong in, instead of wandering the streets annoying and endangering everyone around them.

[attofishpi]

More insanity. Why would you ask me such a moronic question? Why the f would I know anything about your bank accounts? Ugh. I can't stand insane people! They need to eff off back to the asylums they belong in, instead of wandering the streets annoying and endangering everyone around them.

Imagine if I was insane - pretty certain I could suggest Rick kicks you from the forum for picking on someone that is mentally challenged

[accelafine]

More insanity. Why would you ask me such a moronic question? Why the f would I know anything about your bank accounts? Ugh. I can't stand insane people! They need to eff off back to the asylums they belong in, instead of wandering the streets annoying and endangering everyone around them.

Imagine if I was insane - pretty certain I could suggest Rick kicks you from the forum for picking on someone that is mentally challenged

We're all 'mentally challenged. Some are certifiably insane, which you have said you are many times.

[attofishpi]

We're all 'mentally challenged. Some are certifiably insane, which you have said you are many times.

So if I am ACTUALLY insane, then how is it U and so many people on this forum are clearly more challenged by abstract concepts than I am?

Indeed, Y are you intellectually defunct whereas in between these little daft posts I am coding a website (*requires a good grasp of logic and abstract data structures)?

[accelafine]

We're all 'mentally challenged. Some are certifiably insane, which you have said you are many times.

So if I am ACTUALLY insane, then how is it U and so many people on this forum are clearly more challenged by abstract concepts than I am?

Indeed, Y are you intellectually defunct whereas in between these little daft posts I am coding a website (*requires a good grasp of logic and abstract data structures)?

I never said you don't have talent, just that you are insane. That's all.

[attofishpi]

I never said you don't have talent, just that you are insane. That's all.

You are absolutely certain there is not an intelligence behind what we perceive of REAL_IT_Y. Indeed, an intelligence operating throughout all matter, including the minds of wo/man - such that it can convolute all matter and language into its present form.

Is that your belief

[Walker]

Yes, ok then, I'd be interested to hear it.

With regards to extremes of temperature, I much prefer the winter for going on camping trips and the like. Not only are the places far less crowded with tourists, but I can walk for ages without getting too hot. I wouldn't want to get caught in a blizzard, though. I prefer it when the air is still, little or no wind, and dry.

I did not just trot off into a blizzard late at night without a plan. I had a destination and when I reached it I stopped moving and stood under a large pavilion overlooking the city. On three sides of the pavilion posts held up the roof that kept most of the snow off eight large picnic tables with a lot of space around them. A large stone fireplace and chimney filled most of the space for a fourth wall but tonight no fire burned, and the electricity for the lights was locked up.

I was out of the blizzard. Snow had melted on my chest and shoulders from body heat and then iced up again, but I was warm and cozy and out of the snow, yet still outside. I stood in the silence listening to the rustle of snowflakes, to the swirling sound of wind bending around the corners of the pavilion and whooshing through the evergreens on the hillside that sloped away to give me a dim glimpse of the city skyline all diffused and glowing. For some reason, I don’t know why, I turned and peered up into the darkness of the rafters.

When my eyes adjusted to the darkness and outlines appeared I saw what looked like a man crouched on one of the beams. He wore white, head to toe, a white jumpsuit over his clothes, a white hood over his head. The guy was dressed like a sniper, like a soldier in a winter combat zone. He didn’t move and neither did I. We stared at one another in silence for while, then he moved. He slowly lowered himself from the rafter towards a picnic table directly underneath, like a reverse pullup, then he dropped the rest of the way to the table without much of a sound, a drop of about a foot. He must have pulled himself up into the rafters from that table.

Or, to tickle the fancy of infinite potentiality, he could have floated up there. You know, like an angel.

I said nothing. He looked to be in his twenties, lean and fit like a soldier. He began to talk, but not much. He said he was practicing camouflage with his white outfit. I didn’t ask why because you know, he might have had a notion to practice some other skills of war, on me, and although I didn’t get that sense you just never know for sure with strangers. I treated him and his words with casual respect, as if what he was doing there alone in the dark was perfectly normal, which wasn’t all that difficult to do seeing as how I too was out in the blizzard late at night and enjoying the rare weather event, although I was wearing dark clothes so I would be visible against the white snow, not invisible white on white. I wished the fellow a good practice and eased on out of there, then jogged back home. As I mentioned it was odd, nothing grand, a few years after Vietnam and the world was in flux. I wondered how many like him were out there, practicing their stealth.

As odd as it was my sense of the situation was that he was benign, and probably just looking to be part of the elements and the silence.