To Those To Whom This Pertains

[Age]

My psychoses are NOT mild. they are horrific. I cannot un-experience what I've experienced. And I'm not just "accused" of being mentally ill, I AM mentally ill.

Can you explain what these psychotic episodes entail? Do you hallucintate or have serious warped thoughts that you know arn't normal?

I'm dysfunctional and I know it. I don't go around pretending to be something I'm not. Nor can I truthfully be something I'm not. My life is miserable and my brain doesn't know how to be anything but miserable. Life is a tragic disappointment. And there's nothing I or anyone else can do about it. And pretending to be happy isn't truly being happy.

Theoretically, the world could be different. It could be a harmonious or happy place. But it's not. And either there is a creator who knowingly created the world this way or there is not a creator who knowingly created the world this way.

This last paragraph, you look at the same world that WE ALL SHARE, yet none of us are complaining about the state of the world.

This does NOT seem Correct, especially in regards to NEW 'wars' ARE STARTED and BREAK OUT.

Sure, everyone is pissed off with the Jews and the Muzzlems at the moment, and of course the moron Putin causing Russia to destroy Ukraine...but so what?

If BOTH of these examples are related to some or other 'WAR', then LOOK AT WHO is ACTUALLY CAUSING 'these' WARS to ERUPT. And, it could be SAID and ARGUED that just one "country" is BEHIND the CREATION of these WARS.

If you are letting stuff from halfway across the planet get to you, then stop watching the news!!

The planet Earth created by God is PERFECT. It has a perfect balance, the seasons are awesome, the flowers, the nuts and berries, the animals ALL of it is amazing!!

Some might SAY or ARGUE that there is one animal that is although Truly AMAZING but which IS ALSO Truly DESTRUCTIVE and DAMAGING, TO earth and "OTHERS".

God is a genius.
Humanity on the other hand for the most part is ALSO awesome - look at all the great things wo/men have acheived. Don't let Putin and stupid shit in the M.E. get to ya.

WHY do 'you' mention just one adult human being here "attofishpi"?

[attofishpi]

The planet Earth [...] is PERFECT. It has a perfect balance, the seasons are awesome, the flowers, the nuts and berries, the animals ALL of it is amazing!!

Humanity on the other hand for the most part is ALSO awesome - look at all the great things wo/men have acheived.

Wow, that's awesome. Are you trippin' on something at the moment?

Thanks, no I just think the planet Earth is amazing, awesome.
RE: PERFECT...sometime last year I had a dream where I was in a boat similar to the one in the Life of Pi (lifeboat) and it was just me and Je_sus. Well we didnt speak (it wasnt a lucid dream unfortunately) and I was sat on the side of the boat and I slowly started to pivot over the edge and into the "water" while Jesus started to pivot above me. When I was completely upside down with my feet at the water line, Jesus stood on my feet - our soles connected! ---at that moment Jesus said it's perfect (the world) and then I awoke.

So the bit you ommitted re God and being a genius in creating this awesome planet Earth. Well, knowing that God exists I find everyday and every aspect of nature all the more amazing than I would if didn't know about God.

[Age]

My psychoses are NOT mild. they are horrific. I cannot un-experience what I've experienced. And I'm not just "accused" of being mentally ill, I AM mentally ill.

Can you explain what these psychotic episodes entail? Do you hallucintate or have serious warped thoughts that you know arn't normal?

My psychoses are almost dream-like states where I begin to think that horrible, evil, and inhuman things are true and imminent. They're like living nightmares where evil is taking over the world and I become intimately aware of death as unspeakable horror.

But 'this' has been HAPPENING for millennia, and IS STILL HAPPENING 'now', when this is being written. So, it IS NOT 'no dream' "garry childress'", especially for the children who ACTUALLY HAVE TO LIVE WITH 'it', and thus ENDURE 'it'.

Under most circumstances, a person can look at evil elsewhere or the prospect of our own deaths in the future and shirk his head at it, and then go on with life. When I'm having a psychosis it's like being engulfed in a sinister and evil world and unable to escape from it.

Which IS, EXACTLY, how children in "gazza" and in "ukraine" ARE LIVING IN and ENDURING 'now', when this is being written, and how children in "iraq" and in "vietnam" HAD TO LIVE IN, and ENDURE, ALSO. To name but just ONLY a tiny number of "countries", which have been ATTACKED by the adult human beings of OTHER countries.

Literally, I begin to believe that evil runs the world and that I am hopelessly trapped in an evil world where death will be something horrific and yet inescapable.

All 'you' are doing here is just 'having empathy', by LIVING 'the life of a child' in a WAR-TORN country'. IMAGINE how WORSE it would be if 'you' were REALLY THERE, in say "gazza" right 'this second' when 'you' are reading these words "gary childress".

Now, LOOK AROUND 'you'. Are 'you' ABSOLUTELY SURE that it is 'you' WHO IS LIVING 'a tragic disappointment'?

If you've ever woken up from a lucid nightmare anxious and scared, think of my psychoses as being in the middle of experiencing those nightmares and not having woken up yet.

So, one just has to think about being IN 'the moment', of a 'lucid nightmare' BEFORE one 'WAKES UP', right

Then when I am brought down to a stable state through medication and rest I am able to discern that there was something wrong with my thought process, as though my mind had been taken over by autopilot or something.

But there are NO such 'things' as 'your minds'.

However, it is the ABILITY of thee Truly OPEN Mind, which ALLOWS 'you', human beings, to HAVE EMPATHY and to FEEL what "others" CAN, and DO.

Unfortunately, these 'nightmares' that I have stick in my memory permanently to some degree, in that I'm able to continue to remember vague details about them when I come out of my psychosis,

SO, EXACTLY like a REMEMBERED 'lucid nightmare'.

but my mind is not experiencing the sense of urgency and doom that I experience with the psychoses.

SO, SOMEWHAT EXACTLY like a 'lucid nightmare', (except of course that there is NO 'my mind'). People do NOT experience the sense of 'urgency and doom' like when they DID with the nightmare.

It's like having an artificial traumatic experience.

SO, EXACTLY like WITH a nightmare.

My brain recalls the trauma just as if it had really been true, as though it was not a delusion at all.

WHO is 'this one', which 'you' CLAIM has 'its brain'?

AND, if 'you' HAVE 'your brain', then the word 'my', 'have', or 'has' implies OWNERSHIP. So, if 'you' have 'your brain', then do 'you' CONTROL what 'you', supposedly and allegedly OWN, OR, does 'that brain' CONTROL 'you'?

In other words, I have all the physiological effects of trauma, induced by a delusionary state.

When I come out of my psychosis, I return to being somewhat detached from all the evil that happens in the world.

BUT 'you', adult human beings, 'being DETACHED' FROM 'it' IS that 'you' ARE DOING and CAUSING IS one way of HOW the 'evil', which 'you' ARE ALL DOING, IS PROGRESSING and GETTING WORSE.

Now, I suggest here that 'you', ALL, and individually, STOP 'detaching' "your" 'selves' FROM 'the Wrong' that 'you' ARE ALL DOING, and JUST DO what IS JUST NEEDED TO STOP and PREVENT ALL 'evil' FROM EVER HAPPENING and OCCURRING AGAIN.

But, AGAIN, REMEMBER that 'you' ARE ALL ABSOLUTELY FREE to EITHER BEHAVE, or to just CONTINUE TO MISBEHAVE 'the way' that 'you' OBVIOUSLY HAVE BEEN.

I can look at the news and get angry but not feel like I'm being engulfed by it.

GOOD, and USING 'that ANGER', APPROPRIATELY, WAS WHY 'you', human beings, WERE BESTOWED and BLESSED WITH 'that FEELING and EMOTION'.

ABSOLUTELY ALL Wrong/evil doing is BEST OBLITERATED and gotten RID OF, COMPLETELY, and ANGER is the BEST EMOTION to WIPE OUT and DESTROY what is Truly Wrong and evil IN 'the world'.

Which, by the way, is JUST ALL of the Wrong, and/or evil, 'thinking' WITHIN ALL of 'your' adult human beings HEADS.

The ACTUAL 'thing' BEHIND ALL Wrong and/or evil DOING IN 'the world' IS the 'thoughts' and 'thinking' WITHIN those adult human bodies. It is 'thoughts' and 'thinking', which some sometimes MISTAKENLY REFER TO as 'my mind', which CONTROLS ALL of 'those bodies'. SO, STOP and PREVENT ALL the Wrong and/or evil 'thinking' IN 'the world', then 'the world', itself, BECOMES a MUCH BETTER 'place', and relatively VERY, VERY QUICKLY, ALSO.

The BEST REMEDY and CURE FOR the 'ILLNESS' in 'the world' IS STOPPING and PREVENTING children FROM 'growing up' WITH and INTO Wrong and/or evil 'thinking' adult human beings. LIKE ALL of 'you' HAVE, in the days when this is being written.

[Age]

The planet Earth [...] is PERFECT. It has a perfect balance, the seasons are awesome, the flowers, the nuts and berries, the animals ALL of it is amazing!!

Humanity on the other hand for the most part is ALSO awesome - look at all the great things wo/men have acheived.

Wow, that's awesome. Are you trippin' on something at the moment?

Thanks, no I just think the planet Earth is amazing, awesome.
RE: PERFECT...sometime last year I had a dream where I was in a boat similar to the one in the Life of Pi (lifeboat) and it was just me and Je_sus.

WHY is 'that one', which 'you' are referring to here, 'sus' to 'you', "attofishpi"?

WHAT has 'it' done to make 'you' 'suspicious' of 'it', or to have made 'it' some sort of 'suspect', to 'you'?

Well we didnt speak (it wasnt a lucid dream unfortunately) and I was sat on the side of the boat and I slowly started to pivot over the edge and into the "water" while Jesus started to pivot above me. When I was completely upside down with my feet at the water line, Jesus stood on my feet - our soles connected! ---at that moment Jesus said it's perfect (the world) and then I awoke.

So, 'we' did NOT speak, BUT, one of 'us' DID speak, right?

So the bit you ommitted re God and being a genius in creating this awesome planet Earth. Well, knowing that God exists I find everyday and every aspect of nature all the more amazing than I would if didn't know about God.

[attofishpi]

GIVE YER ARSE A CHANCE AGE

[attofishpi]

My psychoses are NOT mild. they are horrific. I cannot un-experience what I've experienced. And I'm not just "accused" of being mentally ill, I AM mentally ill.

Can you explain what these psychotic episodes entail? Do you hallucintate or have serious warped thoughts that you know arn't normal?

My psychoses are almost dream-like states where I begin to think that horrible, evil, and inhuman things are true and imminent. They're like living nightmares where evil is taking over the world and I become intimately aware of death as unspeakable horror. Under most circumstances, a person can look at evil elsewhere or the prospect of our own deaths in the future and shirk his head at it, and then go on with life. When I'm having a psychosis it's like being engulfed in a sinister and evil world and unable to escape from it. Literally, I begin to believe that evil runs the world and that I am hopelessly trapped in an evil world where death will be something horrific and yet inescapable.

If you've ever woken up from a lucid nightmare anxious and scared, think of my psychoses as being in the middle of experiencing those nightmares and not having woken up yet. Then when I am brought down to a stable state through medication and rest I am able to discern that there was something wrong with my thought process, as though my mind had been taken over by autopilot or something. Unfortunately, these 'nightmares' that I have stick in my memory permanently to some degree, in that I'm able to continue to remember vague details about them when I come out of my psychosis, but my mind is not experiencing the sense of urgency and doom that I experience with the psychoses. It's like having an artificial traumatic experience. My brain recalls the trauma just as if it had really been true, as though it was not a delusion at all. In other words, I have all the physiological effects of trauma, induced by a delusionary state.

When I come out of my psychosis, I return to being somewhat detached from all the evil that happens in the world. I can look at the news and get angry but not feel like I'm being engulfed by it.

That's awful Gazza. You probably won't want to hear my little take on it (and most will scoff) but it appears you are dealing with the nasty (evil) side of God. This entity operates throughout our entire consciousness - ALL of reality.
When God used to have me in the 3 month stints in "hell" - I would have a sort of similar experience - even worse than that though - the Day(s) of Reckoning - I won't elaborate on that (speak no evil and all that) - but bloody horrific. My medicine would be a six pack of beer at the very least! - the only medicine from shrinks that would help probably would be something to help get some sleep - dunno - but beer was my goto.

So.

I've already given you the advice from my 'Christian' way of looking at things - to get on good terms with the almighty. I need to insist you look at any indiscretions in your past that may have God TESTING you - if that is the case, sit in a nice church and apologise, spend some time thinking about all the good things re life and spend a moment to thank Christ for what he went through to intil faith in love. This entity should then no longer put you through the evil again..

[Lacewing]

Thanks, no I just think the planet Earth is amazing, awesome.

Me too. Absolutely beautiful, breathtaking, and amazing. Just looking closely at some of the most colorful and ornate birds or flowers... or the faces of so many unique and exotic animals... or learning about the way they communicate and how they know how to work together... WOW!!! This planet was not made for man! Rather, it is a treasure that man is lucky enough to be part of if he respects it and doesn't blow his own existence.

RE: PERFECT...sometime last year I had a dream where I was in a boat similar to the one in the Life of Pi (lifeboat) and it was just me and Je_sus. Well we didnt speak (it wasnt a lucid dream unfortunately) and I was sat on the side of the boat and I slowly started to pivot over the edge and into the "water" while Jesus started to pivot above me. When I was completely upside down with my feet at the water line, Jesus stood on my feet - our soles connected! ---at that moment Jesus said it's perfect (the world) and then I awoke.

That's WONDERFUL! It IS perfect! Everything is divine. Humans suffer a lot because of humankind's demands.

So the bit you ommitted re God and being a genius in creating this awesome planet Earth. Well, knowing that God exists I find everyday and every aspect of nature all the more amazing than I would if didn't know about God.

Maybe. You may not know how you could see it, since that's not how you are seeing it. I see how utterly amazing it is... without any concept of a god. Isn't that GREAT?!! I like it when we get along.

[attofishpi]

Het, me too Lacewing!

[Age]

GIVE YER ARSE A CHANCE AGE

WHY did 'these people', BACK THEN, just NOT ADMIT and ACKNOWLEDGE when they SPOKE and/or WROTE Incorrectly?

[Age]

Can you explain what these psychotic episodes entail? Do you hallucintate or have serious warped thoughts that you know arn't normal?

My psychoses are almost dream-like states where I begin to think that horrible, evil, and inhuman things are true and imminent. They're like living nightmares where evil is taking over the world and I become intimately aware of death as unspeakable horror. Under most circumstances, a person can look at evil elsewhere or the prospect of our own deaths in the future and shirk his head at it, and then go on with life. When I'm having a psychosis it's like being engulfed in a sinister and evil world and unable to escape from it. Literally, I begin to believe that evil runs the world and that I am hopelessly trapped in an evil world where death will be something horrific and yet inescapable.

If you've ever woken up from a lucid nightmare anxious and scared, think of my psychoses as being in the middle of experiencing those nightmares and not having woken up yet. Then when I am brought down to a stable state through medication and rest I am able to discern that there was something wrong with my thought process, as though my mind had been taken over by autopilot or something. Unfortunately, these 'nightmares' that I have stick in my memory permanently to some degree, in that I'm able to continue to remember vague details about them when I come out of my psychosis, but my mind is not experiencing the sense of urgency and doom that I experience with the psychoses. It's like having an artificial traumatic experience. My brain recalls the trauma just as if it had really been true, as though it was not a delusion at all. In other words, I have all the physiological effects of trauma, induced by a delusionary state.

When I come out of my psychosis, I return to being somewhat detached from all the evil that happens in the world. I can look at the news and get angry but not feel like I'm being engulfed by it.

That's awful Gazza. You probably won't want to hear my little take on it (and most will scoff) but it appears you are dealing with the nasty (evil) side of God.

But there is NO such 'thing' as a 'nasty (evil) "side" of God, and this is JUST BECAUSE of WHO and WHAT the God word MEANS and REFERS TO, EXACTLY.

However, that 'you', adult human beings, DO NASTY and 'evil' 'things' to "each other", to the planet earth, and to 'its' inhabitants IS FAIRLY OBVIOUS. Well to SOME of 'us' anyway.

This entity operates throughout our entire consciousness - ALL of reality.
When God used to have me in the 3 month stints in "hell" - I would have a sort of similar experience - even worse than that though - the Day(s) of Reckoning - I won't elaborate on that (speak no evil and all that) - but bloody horrific. My medicine would be a six pack of beer at the very least! - the only medicine from shrinks that would help probably would be something to help get some sleep - dunno - but beer was my goto.

So.

I've already given you the advice from my 'Christian' way of looking at things - to get on good terms with the almighty.

But a GREAT DEAL of what 'you' DO here "attofishpi" is CERTAINLY NOT on 'good terms' of God, AT ALL.

I need to insist you look at any indiscretions in your past that may have God TESTING you - if that is the case, sit in a nice church and apologise, spend some time thinking about all the good things re life and spend a moment to thank Christ for what he went through to intil faith in love. This entity should then no longer put you through the evil again..

Talk ABOUT providing a GREAT example of one having been COMPLETELY MISLED, and then 'TRYING TO' COMPLETELY MISLEAD "others".

[Age]

Thanks, no I just think the planet Earth is amazing, awesome.

Me too. Absolutely beautiful, breathtaking, and amazing. Just looking closely at some of the most colorful and ornate birds or flowers... or the faces of so many unique and exotic animals... or learning about the way they communicate and how they know how to work together... WOW!!! This planet was not made for man! Rather, it is a treasure that man is lucky enough to be part of if he respects it and doesn't blow his own existence.

RE: PERFECT...sometime last year I had a dream where I was in a boat similar to the one in the Life of Pi (lifeboat) and it was just me and Je_sus. Well we didnt speak (it wasnt a lucid dream unfortunately) and I was sat on the side of the boat and I slowly started to pivot over the edge and into the "water" while Jesus started to pivot above me. When I was completely upside down with my feet at the water line, Jesus stood on my feet - our soles connected! ---at that moment Jesus said it's perfect (the world) and then I awoke.

That's WONDERFUL! It IS perfect! Everything is divine. Humans suffer a lot because of humankind's demands.

ONLY children SUFFER. AGAIN, because of what 'you', adult human beings, ARE DOING, and CAUSING.

FULLY 'grown up' and 'matured' ones do NOT 'suffer'.

So the bit you ommitted re God and being a genius in creating this awesome planet Earth. Well, knowing that God exists I find everyday and every aspect of nature all the more amazing than I would if didn't know about God.

Maybe. You may not know how you could see it, since that's not how you are seeing it.

But 'you' may NOT know how 'you' could see 'it', "lacewing", since that is NOT how 'you' are seeing 'it'.

I see how utterly amazing it is... without any concept of a god.

Some people have just GIVEN A NAME to what 'you' OBVIOUSLY have NOT YET, other than OF COURSE just calling 'God', 'it'.

ALSO, can 'you' see how utterly amazing 'it' is, without any concept of 'it'?

Isn't that GREAT?!! I like it when we get along.

But HOW could 'you', people, GET ALONG, especially considering that you' CONTINUALLY WANT TO 'TRY TO' CLAIM that there is NOT even 'one truth', to AGREE WITH, NOR even 'one path', TO GO ALONG ON WITH, TOGETHER?

[Atla]

My psychoses are NOT mild. they are horrific. I cannot un-experience what I've experienced. And I'm not just "accused" of being mentally ill, I AM mentally ill.

Can you explain what these psychotic episodes entail? Do you hallucintate or have serious warped thoughts that you know arn't normal?

My psychoses are almost dream-like states where I begin to think that horrible, evil, and inhuman things are true and imminent. They're like living nightmares where evil is taking over the world and I become intimately aware of death as unspeakable horror. Under most circumstances, a person can look at evil elsewhere or the prospect of our own deaths in the future and shirk his head at it, and then go on with life. When I'm having a psychosis it's like being engulfed in a sinister and evil world and unable to escape from it. Literally, I begin to believe that evil runs the world and that I am hopelessly trapped in an evil world where death will be something horrific and yet inescapable.

If you've ever woken up from a lucid nightmare anxious and scared, think of my psychoses as being in the middle of experiencing those nightmares and not having woken up yet. Then when I am brought down to a stable state through medication and rest I am able to discern that there was something wrong with my thought process, as though my mind had been taken over by autopilot or something. Unfortunately, these 'nightmares' that I have stick in my memory permanently to some degree, in that I'm able to continue to remember vague details about them when I come out of my psychosis, but my mind is not experiencing the sense of urgency and doom that I experience with the psychoses. It's like having an artificial traumatic experience. My brain recalls the trauma just as if it had really been true, as though it was not a delusion at all. In other words, I have all the physiological effects of trauma, induced by a delusionary state.

When I come out of my psychosis, I return to being somewhat detached from all the evil that happens in the world. I can look at the news and get angry but not feel like I'm being engulfed by it.

That may be because you're actually in a state where a part of you brain/mind is awake and a part is dreaming. But this is different from lucid dreaming. That shouldn't happen normally but it does in psychosis imo. It's a glitch.

Then after this, you have to do all the hard work of figuring out which memories are false, and manually erase them until you no longer remember them.

[Gary Childress]

And I'm not just "accused" of being mentally ill, I AM mentally ill.

There is NO an adult human being who is NOT 'mentally ill'. SO, there is NO need to 'feel' ALONE here "gary childress".

No, Age. There are "adult human beings" who are NOT mentally ill. You and I are the ones who are mentally ill.

[Gary Childress]

GIVE YER ARSE A CHANCE AGE

WHY did 'these people', BACK THEN, just NOT ADMIT and ACKNOWLEDGE when they SPOKE and/or WROTE Incorrectly?

Because they don't have the same kind of problems as you and I do. And perhaps not all of them deserve to have the same kind of problems as you and I do.

[Age]

And I'm not just "accused" of being mentally ill, I AM mentally ill.

There is NO an adult human being who is NOT 'mentally ill'. SO, there is NO need to 'feel' ALONE here "gary childress".

No, Age. There are "adult human beings" who are NOT mentally ill. You and I are the ones who are mentally ill.

Name just ONE adult human being who, supposedly, does NOT have some form of MENTAL ILLNESS, AT ALL.