Age wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 9:16 am
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
@AJ: Life, the world, everything is bigger than any and all of us put together. No mortal can tame it. We must all eventually face the inevitable. I'd like to think that how we face it depends upon how we've lived it and what we've done during that time.
WHY would you think this?
AND, in what 'way' do you think one faces the so-called 'inevitable' when they have lived life in a particular way and what they have done during that time? Also, what are the different ways or doings?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
The only thing I have "against" you is your seemingly ready and enthusiastic embrace of all that can be dark and sinister in a human. When I said you were looking for sheep to "follow" you, you instead exclaimed that you were looking for sheep to "devour". When I offered you very early on to make peace with me and retire into old age to watch over the young, you said "no", that it was "war" between you and me.
But this is just the effect and a throw-back of FOLLOWING "christianity".
Just LOOK AT ALL the wars in the last century or so, from when this is being written. So-called "christian" countries/cultures just LOVE to SHOW their POWER OVER "others" and their BELIEF that 'they' ARE SUPERIOR and do have 'the right' to MURDER and KILL "others", even if they are completely and utterly Truly completely INNOCENT CHILDREN.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I seem to recall there being other examples, but they don't come to mind immediately. I can only give you a warning that you may be headed into dangerous waters. There may be something more out there or within us than we realize.
What do you mean here by 'may be'?
There is OBVIOUSLY STILL a LOT MORE for 'you', human beings, in the days when this is being written, for 'you' TO LEARN and REALIZE.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I do that because I cannot wish the visions I have had on anyone.
The last time I was hospitalized I had shown up at the hospital weeping because I felt more alone and unloved than I had ever felt in my life.
Now IMAGINE those who HAD/HAVE absolutely NO one who loves them, and HOW 'they' FEEL.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
All I have ever pursued in life was a love to call my own, a woman, a companion in life.
Here we have ANOTHER PRIME example of WHY these people, back then, NEVER came to FINDING the ACTUAL Truth of 'things'. The MORE or LONGER they TOOK to just SPEAK and TELL the ACTUAL Truth of 'things' was the VERY REASON WHY 'they' TOOK SO LONG to FINDING and SEEING the ACTUAL Truth of 'things'.
I suggest you speak THE Truth, THE WHOLE Truth, and ONLY THE Truth from now on "gary childress".
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
As I sat on the end of the hospital bed with tears pouring down my face more fervently than a Florida rain storm,
NEVER let the Truth get in the way of a 'good story' hey "gary childress"?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
the psychiatrist in charge decided to send me to a psychiatric ward (I had gone to a medical hospital). That night as I waited to be transported to a psychiatric hospital that had a bed opening, I went through the most horrible visions. They were visions of demons who were people
LOL WHO else do you EXPECT are or even could be 'demons'?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I had seen in the news and media. People were killing and destroying people in the street below the room I was in. I saw brave yet innocent young people smiling and playing waiting to fight a war that might just as easily spell their deaths. I heard strange "music" ( if I can even call it that) in the background, just barely perceptible. It had an almost alien, perhaps demonic quality to it. They put an IV in me. I tore it out of my arm and bled on the sheets (that happened for real, it was not part of the visions). It was not the only night of horrible visions I had had.
One just has to watch television or the internet to SEE MUCH WORSE.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
There had been others. And there were horrible visions I saw when my father recently passed away.
Anyway, I have not been able to forgive God
So you do now KNOW or BELIEVE that God does ACTUALLY EXIST, right?
When you say, 'the world', what do you ACTUALLY MEAN and REFER TO, EXACTLY?
Also, WHY do you BELIEVE some 'thing' 'runs' 'the world'?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
for that night or any of the horror that has taken place in my mind.
1. There is NO 'thing' that has 'its mind'.
2. There is ONLY One Mind.
Also, why do you feel that you are NOT able to forgive ANY 'thing' for what was OBVIOUSLY just SOME vision.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I had started that night with the greatest emptiness and loneliness in my heart seeking love and comfort somehow, somewhere.
Do you think, feel, or believe that there is NOT one, WITHIN, who CAN give love and/or comfort?
Also, what has LED you to SEEK love and comfort anyway?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
By the end of that night things had changed to absolute terror and horror.
To me, sounds like you were just ACTUALLY watching the news/media IN REAL.
There was NOTHING MORE horrific than what "others" HAVE TO ACTUALLY ENDURE IN REAL.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
How can a benevolent creator--anything let that happen to me?
LOL Talk ABOUT a PRIME example of just how Truly SELFISH and SELF-CENTERED the adult human being HAD BECOME, that is; back in those days when this was being written.
"If A Creator EXISTS, then how could 'It' let ANY 'thing' that I do NOT want HAPPEN TO me?" These people REALLY WERE so INFATUATED WITH "them" INDIVIDUAL 'selves'.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
It was the equivalent of mind rape. Mind rape is how I would describe it. That happened in 2017, if I recall correctly.
Oh 'you' 'poor thing' "gary childress", 'you' had an UNWANTED 'dream', or nightmare.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I wonder why I of all people had to experience that.
SO, 'you' could eventually come to a philosophy forum and TELL "others" how UNFAIR you feel you were treated and complain about how you feel you SHOULD HAVE BEEN treated MUCH MORE FAIRLY.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I had never had a girlfriend in my life.
WHO REALLY CARES?
And, IF you REALLY WANTED a girlfriend you could get one by the time it took you to finish reading this post of mine. But, OBVIOUSLY, you do NOT REALLY WANT one, or your CHOICE is just TOO LIMITED.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I wasn't wealthy. I had never held a position of any real power over others in my many jobs. I had walked away from many positions of employment in which I perceived I was not doing anything for the good of anyone except making money for myself and those I worked with or managed the business. I had made mistakes in life and caused harm without realizing it, but I didn't perceive that I have ever intentionally done anything of significant evil. Why me? Was it simply because at the time I was agnostic and had been an atheist in the past?
WHY do you KEEP INFORMING us here, in a philosophy forum, and 'HARD DONE BY' you feel?
Also, 'WHY ME?' could NOT come across as MORE OF 'a victim' even if you wanted to.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
It also made me wonder if those who commit the worst evils in this world, sending young people to their deaths in war in order to kill young people from somewhere else on a battlefield will ever experience something as debilitating as that.
Well that IS 'you', "gary childress", AND people LIKE 'you'. It is people like 'you' who vote in people, in countries like the laughably called "united states of america", which ORDERS the WARS, which CAUSE the KILLING of the MOST children, who ARE the Truly INNOCENT of 'the world'.
Anyway that is NOT the 'evil' AND 'sinning' that ANY one should REALLY be WORRYING ABOUT.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
What about those bringing fentanyl into the drug trade, causing untold death and suffering? Will they ever experience something like that? Or was God punishing me for no other reason than I didn't "worship" him? How can I worship something like that?
I will suggest you LOOK AT what 'you have done', or what 'you are NOT doing', instead of continually 'trying to' BLAME God for just WANTING to 'punish you' for NO real reason.
But PLEASE CONTINUE TO FEEL FREE to DO, or NOT DO, whatever 'it' IS that you WANT.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
You can make of it what you will. But I had those visions. I remember that experience. I will never forget what mental illness has done to me.
What has 'mental illness' DONE TO 'you'?
And, who and/or what ARE 'you', in relation to or compared to 'mental illness', itself?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Tue Jun 20, 2023 3:05 am
I will never forget the once innocent joy it robbed me of and the smile that has forever been torn from my lips when I was first diagnosed.
I will suggest that EVERY adult human being will NEVER forget the once INNOCENT JOY EVERY one HAD, sometime in childhood, AND WISHED they STILL HAD 'that joy'.