I know you, I know you. You're the only serious person in the room, aren't you, the only one who understands, and you can prove it by the fact that you've never finished a single thing in your life. You're the only well-educated person, because you never went to college, and you resent education, you resent social ease, you resent good manners, you resent success, you resent any kind of success, you resent God, you resent Christ, you resent thousand-dollar bills, you resent Christmas, by God, you resent happiness, you resent happiness itself, because none of that's real. What is real, then? Nothing's real to you that isn't part of your own past, real life, a swamp of failures, of social, sexual, financial, personal...spiritual failure. Real life. You poor bastard. You don't know what real life is, you've never been near it. All you have is a thousand intellectualized ideas about life. But life? Have you ever measured yourself against anything but your own lousy past? Have you ever faced anything outside yourself? Life! You poor bastard.
Me of course. But what about you?
If it is not beautiful for someone, it does not exist.
On this planet, let's say.
Merry Christmas! the man threatened.
Ah, Satyr at ILP once upon a time. Now, however, he suspected, it's Christmas there 12 months a years.
Everybody has that feeling when they look at a work of art and it's right, that sudden familiarity, a sort of...recognition, as though they were creating it themselves, as though it were being created through them while they look at it or listen to it...
Or, here, when they read a post like this one.
How real is any of the past, being every moment revalued to make the present possible...
And, all the more preposterous still, the future.
It is the bliss of childhood that we are being warped most when we know it the least.
And then [if you are particularly lucky] all the way to the grave.