I'm not sure how you do.RCSaunders wrote: ↑Sat Mar 28, 2020 6:33 pmIC, you are going to believe what you believe, and I understand why.
How could you know why I did something...unless you were generalizing your experience to me, which may or may not be a good way to go? One thing for sure; it's probably not a one-for-one match, and maybe not anything very close.
That being said, I'm interested in your own experience, even if it's not quite the same.
As I studied and became aware of the contradictions in Christianity, and in what the Bible taught, I had to work harder and harder to defend my views, until I was finally honest with myself, that what I was doing was not reasoning, but rationalizing to make, "sense," of Bible teaching, because it was what I wanted to believe.
That's an interesting experience.
I have to say that it was not mine. I rather went the other way...from skepticism to faith.
Were your beliefs received from someone else? It seems so, as I read below...
I wouldn't say so.All of apologetics is not an attempt to discover the truth, but an attempt to defend what one has decided is going to be true, no matter what.
That's what you could say about the worst kind of apologetics...whether for belief or for another position like agnosticism or Atheism. It's always possible for people to amass selective evidences, and to ignore the greater mass of data. All ideological interest groups do that, at their worst.
But I wouldn't say that's what apologetics at their best are. Rather, at best, they are a way of offering ways of removing rational impediments to taking faith seriously. Apologetics do not change minds all by themselves, of course; but they have their utility, in that when somebody has become "blocked" by some misunderstanding or some critique, they can sometimes "unjam" the problem, and permit reason to proceed. And when they do that, they have their uses.
I'm interested. Whose "song" were you hearing? Who was singing?So I was more than willing to hear, and the more carefully I listened the more I became aware of the dissonance of the song, deceptively appealing like the Siren's song, but all, unfortunately, a lie.
It was different, in my case. The first "song" for which I really "had ears" was that of the agnostics and secularists, and some of the angry Atheists of great repute. But you listen to them long enough, and you begin to hear how bitter and hostile they are, and how empty, contrived and self-serving are all their prescriptions. Me, I grew weary of their dusty and implausible attempts to interpret things like evil and suffering, against which, to me, it looked like they had no defence at all; but that they were involved in a sort of bad-apologetics operation, with the aim of avoiding the fundamental problems altogether. Like Job, I could call out, "Miserable comforters are ye all!"
Perhaps the agnostic writer Thomas Hardy was right, when he penned, "...if way to the better there be / It exacts a full look at the worst." That means recognizing the problem of evil, of failure, of pain, of loss and of death for exactly what it is -- a problem for which all these cynical cacklers have not even the start of an answer. And maybe it's only when you get that serious that one is ready to start a dialogue with God. Up to that point, one is more or less content to go on as if life will always get better, dreams will still be fulfilled, and death will never come. But that sort of unseriousness seems to me to be the opposite of real critical reflection.
Wrong? Of course it wouldn't be wrong. If you know a truth, it would be an act of respect and kindness to share it. To know a truth and yet to withhold it would be rather unkind.As you see, I am not making an argument here. I know better than to try to convince you. You've made your decision and it would be wrong for me to attempt to change it.