And yet, I am pretty sure you get the point.
You accused God of "failing" you, by not "showing up." What did you expect Him to do for you? Nothing, you say. You didn't expect Him to "show up" in any particular regard. So He hasn't "failed" you at all. How does that make sense? It doesn't, obviously.
But I think I get it: I see what's really happening here. Either you realize now your expectation of God was unreasonable and irrational (or perhaps it was so vague that you couldn't even now say what it would be, you just didn't want to entertain any thoughts about God existing) -- or else you DO know what you were expecting and why, but don't feel you want to say, because it's too personal.
Which it is, only you know. And I promised not to pry.
However, one thing's very clear: I can see that you're trying very, very hard not to think about it, or to give a straight answer. And you don't owe me one. But you do owe yourself one. Is what you expected of God, that thing in which he "failed" you, a thing you ought to have had reason to expect? And if it's not, then God has not "failed" you at all.