I give up on all things in life

[MozartLink]

This is my final message to everyone here. I give up. I have a great composing talent and I am giving up on it. If in a pretend situation I had a genius composing talent that I have yet to learn how to accurately convey, then I would give up on this talent. I would only pursue this talent when I am happy and healthy. My health and well-being is the #1 thing to me above any given purpose in my life. In other words, as long as I am in a good mood, not depressed, and don't have any potential life threatening illness in my life to make me even further depressed, then I have every reason to continue on with being a composer.

But as long as I cannot enjoy any given purpose in my life such as composing through my good moods, then I would give up on such a purpose. Since my health and well-being is what gives joy and meaning to all things in my life, then this is the reason why I am giving up on being a composer and am now giving up on all things in this life as well. This is because I struggle with depression, absence of pleasure, and also an autoimmune disorder that poses life threatening complications.

In conclusion, I am not like other artists who take value and meaning in their suffering and in having a purpose such as making the world a better place even while they are struggling with depression and other illnesses. This is my personal composing dream and my personal life here. As long as I cannot enjoy it, then I am giving up on it right now. How I feel in life is what's important here. Not who I am and what my purpose is.

[Hobbes' Choice]

It's your loss. Not ours.
Think it over.
This Forum is not real life, and we don't really know you, so run along and find some real friends who can are about you.

[Bill Wiltrack]

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In conclusion, You are exactly like other artists who take value and meaning in their suffering and in having a purpose such as making the world a better place even while they are struggling with depression and other illnesses. You refused to share your personal composing dream and your personal life here. You cannot enjoy this forum completely unless you share with us your real name & location. You're a phony. I am giving up on you right now. Being real in life is what's important here. Not who you say you are and what your supposed purpose is.


I've asked you to share your compositions upon this forum with us. You didn't. You are a failure. An unhealthy distraction to this forum.

You will change in the future but for now I order you to refrain from posting here until you get better.





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[MozartLink]

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In conclusion, You are exactly like other artists who take value and meaning in their suffering and in having a purpose such as making the world a better place even while they are struggling with depression and other illnesses. You refused to share your personal composing dream and your personal life here. You cannot enjoy this forum completely unless you share with us your real name & location. You're a phony. I am giving up on you right now. Being real in life is what's important here. Not who you say you are and what your supposed purpose is.


I've asked you to share your compositions upon this forum with us. You didn't. You are a failure. An unhealthy distraction to this forum.

You will change in the future but for now I order you to refrain from posting here until you get better.





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So what it all comes down to now is the afterlife. The eternal blissful afterlife is the only life I have to look forward to now since this life I have now is a waste to me. As long as a life consists of much depression, illness, and suffering, I find it to be a wasted meaningless life that also wastes away my composing dream as well. But if I do get to live on in this afterlife, then I can truly compose and find meaning and joy in doing so since I will be in a good mood for all eternity and will have no more suffering and depression in my life anymore. I can then become famous all I want and finally enjoy my fame all I want with no more suffering and illnesses taking any of that away from me. So for now, I am giving up on my composing and saving it for the next life.

[Bill Wiltrack]

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So again, you dodge the proposition presented to you and attempt to distract.


tl;dr - Grow-up. Come back.



You're a phony. A phony to what you supposedly love and a complete phony in the way that you present yourself here.






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[MozartLink]

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So again, you dodge the proposition presented to you and attempt to distract.


tl;dr - Grow-up. Come back.



You're a phony. A phony to what you supposedly love and a complete phony in the way that you present yourself here.






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You say that I am a phony since you think I am lying about me being a composer. I have created compositions in my mind which are great. But they are only in my mind for now. I have no youtube links to any compositions of mine since I have yet to learn how to actually produce them how I hear them. If I were to try and produce them now or sing them, then it would be an utter mess.

[Bill Wiltrack]

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It would NOT be an utter mess. The longest journey starts with a single step.

Anyone can post on youtube.

Play one of your compositions & post it.



It doesn't have to be good initially.


Look at me. I am - hang-on gotta go. Sorry.




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[MozartLink]

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It would NOT be an utter mess. The longest journey starts with a single step.

Anyone can post on youtube.

Play one of your compositions & post it.



It doesn't have to be good initially.


Look at me. I am - hang-on gotta go. Sorry.




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What's the use now though? Presenting my compositions can no longer bring my life anymore joy and meaning anyway since I can no longer feel any joy, love, inspiration, etc. That, and my life is now depressing and bleak since I struggle with a potentially life threatening autoimmune disease as well.

[Walker]

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It would NOT be an utter mess. The longest journey starts with a single step.

Anyone can post on youtube.

Play one of your compositions & post it.



It doesn't have to be good initially.


Look at me. I am - hang-on gotta go. Sorry.




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What's the use now though? Presenting my compositions can no longer bring my life anymore joy and meaning anyway since I can no longer feel any joy, love, inspiration, etc. That, and my life is now depressing and bleak since I struggle with a potentially life threatening autoimmune disease as well.

Make Someone Happy Lyrics - Jimmy Durante

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fznw-AGoENo

[MozartLink]

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It would NOT be an utter mess. The longest journey starts with a single step.

Anyone can post on youtube.

Play one of your compositions & post it.



It doesn't have to be good initially.


Look at me. I am - hang-on gotta go. Sorry.




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What's the use now though? Presenting my compositions can no longer bring my life anymore joy and meaning anyway since I can no longer feel any joy, love, inspiration, etc. That, and my life is now depressing and bleak since I struggle with a potentially life threatening autoimmune disease as well.

Make Someone Happy Lyrics - Jimmy Durante

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fznw-AGoENo

The only thing I care about in life is how I feel. Nothing else matters to me. I can make others feel happy all I want. But without my own feelings of happiness, love, joy, inspiration, etc., then even making others happy means nothing and is an empty life to me.

[Walker]

The only thing I care about in life is how I feel. Nothing else matters to me. I can make others feel happy all I want. But without my own feelings of happiness, love, joy, inspiration, etc., then even making others happy means nothing and is an empty life to me.

How’s that working out for you?

In the great rising of Equanimity, happiness is actually superfluous, even thought that sounds counter-intuitive.

[MozartLink]

The only thing I care about in life is how I feel. Nothing else matters to me. I can make others feel happy all I want. But without my own feelings of happiness, love, joy, inspiration, etc., then even making others happy means nothing and is an empty life to me.

How’s that working out for you?

In the great rising of Equanimity, happiness is actually superfluous, even thought that sounds counter-intuitive.

This way of thinking is not working out for me. But neither will any other way of thinking either since it never has. The hedonistic way of life is the only way that can ever bring my life joy and meaning and I'm not sure if I can have that life back to me. Our good moods are necessary though since they are what give joy and meaning to our lives. Our way of thinking does not do this.

[Walker]

The people who appear the happiest often come from tragic circumstances.

[MozartLink]

The people who appear the happiest often come from tragic circumstances.

Not always true. There are so many depressed and anhedonic people who are suicidal even while struggling with it for many years.

[Walker]

Then be the exception to what you know.

There is no trying, only doing.
- Yoda