How I see life

[MozartLink]

Being happy and healthy and living on forever in such a state of well-being is all there is to life. It is the one and only source of joy, peace, inspiration, love, and meaning in your life. If you are someone suffering who is very unhealthy such as someone with cancer and depression on life support, then we should just throw you away like an unhealthy moldy defective piece of bread since our health, well-being, and happiness is all there is to life.

I would not want a moldy piece of bread sitting on my counter. I would want to throw it away. I would not even bother trying to preserve that moldy piece of bread. Or, in this case, trying to preserve someone's life by keeping him/her on life support or keeping a depressed person alive who struggles with a severe depressive illness.

The fact is, they have gone bad. They are defective like a moldy piece of bread and need to be thrown away. Only happy and healthy things have every reason to thrive and live on. I don't mean that in a cruel way. I mean it in a compassionate way. The fact that this moldy piece of bread is a piece of bread does not make it anything special and worthy of keeping alive. It is moldy and needs to be thrown away. So in that same sense, it doesn't matter that we are human beings with flaws, defects, and illnesses. If we struggle with such illnesses, then it is time for us to go.

Why do I say this? Because life is all about avoiding pain and suffering and pursuing pleasure (our good moods). It is the pain/pleasure principle of life. This is the only principle of life that gives our lives meaning, peace, and joy. You should avoid pain and suffering at all costs. It is how a healthy doctor would live his/her life. He/she would be proactive and take the right supplements/treatments to prevent any illness or form of suffering from happening to him/her in his/her life later down the road.

That's all life is about. Being happy and healthy and nothing more. As long as you struggle with depression and/or any other major suffering/illness in your life that could potentially kill you, then your life is miserable, empty, and meaningless no matter what. Not even your own family can give your life any joy, peace, or meaning now. They can only give your life joy, peace, and meaning only in the context of you being happy, healthy, and having your full sense of well-being in your life. You might have claimed to have found joy and meaning in your life even while suffering from depression and any other illness. But that is not me. I find no meaning or anything living such a life.

Life is all about avoiding pain/suffering and pursuing pleasure. If you have to suffer from depression or any other major life threatening illness that can't be fully prevented by treatments, then you should end your life since death is the only treatment now that will end that said suffering/illness in your life. The fact that you have a family and goals/dreams to live for doesn't matter. Those things can only matter to you and give your life peace, joy, and meaning only when you are happy and healthy.

Even mothers should never give birth to their children since they would have to go through the immense pain of childbirth. What's worse is that this child would then have to live a life of suffering as well. In other words, even my own mother should of never given birth to me. Not only did she have to suffer from childbirth, but I also have to suffer now since I struggle with depression and anhedonia (absence of pleasure).

But if no one gave birth to anyone, then the human race would not exist. Which is my point exactly. Since this life is not meant for us and is not meant to make us happy and healthy, then all of humanity was better off never having come into existence. But if life had no suffering and was all about pleasure, then we as human beings have every reason to live that life. The only way to appreciate the beauty of this life and the only way to find peace, joy, and meaning in your life is having your full pleasure (good moods) and having no suffering in your life.

But if there is an afterlife of eternal bliss of no more suffering for us as human beings, then to me it is worth suffering to live that life. But if there is no such life, then we should all end our lives since an eternal blissful life of no more suffering is all that matters in life. Not our family and goals/dreams we have to live for. Like I said before, those things can only matter and give our lives meaning when there is an eternal blissful life of no more suffering for us.

Therefore, if I had the choice to either have no eternal blissful afterlife and to live this one and only life for my family or to instead abandon my family so that I can live an eternal blissful life, then I would choose to abandon my family since they can no longer fill my life with any joy or meaning as long as I am not in a good mood and have suffering in my life.

This is all that matters to me and is all I live for and have lived for my whole entire life. I solely live relying on my good moods, no major suffering in my life, and a belief in the eternal blissful afterlife to give peace, joy, inspiration, and meaning to my life, family, and my composing. I can bring others joy and meaning all I want. But without my own happy and healthy life, then everything in my life is empty, hopeless, miserable, and meaningless.

Yes, my family does matter to me. But I don't have the time to sit with them all day. I have my own personal life to attend to. What gives my life personal meaning is my own happiness, health, and well-being. I find no meaning or joy whatsoever living my life and composing as long as I am depressed, not in a good mood, and have a major form of suffering in my life that has the potential to be fatal since all those things make my life nothing but miserable, empty, and meaningless no matter what.

We have the pain/pleasure principle and we then have the moral principle. Now the moral principle is where someone would find value and meaning in their suffering, death, hardships, and is the type of person who would strive on in life despite his/her agony in order to still live for his/her family and whatnot. But that is not me at all. I am all about the pain/pleasure principle. So I am a hedonist. I am not a non-hedonist and I find no value or meaning whatsoever in living a non-hedonistic lifestyle since, like I said before, a life of suffering and death is nothing but miserable and meaningless to me.

So what I need in my life to give my life joy, peace, inspiration, and meaning is my good moods, as little suffering as possible, to live a full happy and healthy life, and to believe in the eternal blissful afterlife of no more suffering so that I can then have hope, joy, and meaning from the idea of living that afterlife. This is the only thing that gives my composing and life joy and meaning to me. It is the only thing that makes my family and my composing as well as this entire life matter to me. Without those things in my life, then nothing matters to me anymore, it is all empty, hopeless, and meaningless to me, and I would just give up and end my life.

Many years in the past, I lived the perfect life. I had all those things in my life. But now I have lost them all. I no longer believe in the afterlife anymore (although I am having an open mind towards it now since it is said that there is much evidence for the existence of the afterlife). Furthermore, I no longer have my good moods anymore since I struggle with anhedonia (absence of pleasure) as well as depression now. Lastly, I might have some sort of physical illness now (a weakened immune system) that has the potential to kill me off if I ever get the flu or cold again.

This life is not meant to give us the things we want (the things that give our personal lives meaning and joy). Neither is it meant for our goals and dreams either. For example, a person with a great talent wanting to achieve his/her dream in life. If some fatal illness came into his/her life before he/she had the chance to achieve his/her dream that he/she was striving for and never got the chance to achieve it and share his/her talent with the world, then it was all a wasted effort and was all for nothing.

It is for this very reason I give up on life and is why life is all empty and meaningless to me. We as human beings only want to live the life the way we want to live and to have the things in our lives that give our lives joy and meaning and this life just takes that all away from us. I feel that my own composing dream is a waste now since not only am I suffering now from depression and whatnot, but also the idea that some illness could kill me off before I get the chance to achieve that said dream and to fully produce music later on in the future. Some people would say to just keep striving anyway and that this is somehow supposed to be a meaningful outlook. But that to me is a completely meaningless outlook.

We as human beings seek meaning in a life that is random and meaningless and we seek after the things we want in a life that doesn't give us what we want. These are two conflicting worlds. We want our lives to be smooth and perfect so that we can fully achieve the things we want in our lives such as our goals/dreams without any fatal illnesses coming into our lives and killing us off before we get that chance. But here we then have life itself which does not give us that. So I find this life and us as human beings not in harmony. It is for this very reason I see life not worth living at all and that we should just end that life.

The fact that I have a family and whatnot does not matter to me. I am on a mission here to achieve something great with my composing and I am here to be all pumped up in a good mood when creating my compositions and to not have any major suffering/depression in my life make my life miserable and bring my sense of well-being down. That is all I am here for. This is my one and only mission here. So I consider this mission failed and that I should just end my life right now.

Some people would say to just appreciate the things I have in my life and don't bother going after the things I want such as my good moods and my belief in the afterlife. But none of those things matter to me. They only matter to me in the context of having those things I want that give joy and meaning to everything else in my life. Those things I want are like the sweet sugar coating on a bland piece of candy. Everything else I already have in my life is like a bland piece of candy. It gives my life no joy or meaning alone in of itself. I need that sweet sugar coating in order to make that piece of candy something good to me.

A belief in the afterlife of eternal bliss is the most important thing to me since it is the greatest life which is an eternal blissful life of no more suffering. If no such life exists, then I see everyone including my own family as being nothing more than decaying pieces of meat that are bound to die one day and forever remain dead. Without living on forever in eternal health, happiness, and well-being, then everything including my own family are all empty, meaningless, and no longer worth living for. As a matter of fact, I see us all as human beings as utterly inferior no matter what we do with our lives. I see us all as nothing more than these surviving inferior primitive animals that are prone to suffering and illness to just forever die in the end. That is utterly primitive and inferior to me. It is for this very reason I do not even wish to be of the human species.

I feel like I am a transcended immortal being from the distant future trapped inside this inferior human body and this inferior time period. Who I am on the inside is someone of true greatness. I am too great and far superior for this inferior life of suffering and illness. I am someone far greater than that. I am someone who would want to live forever, be all powerful, transcended, and unstoppable in which no suffering or illness can ever reduce me down to some inferior defect. I utterly detest this inferior mortal life of suffering/illness and forever dying in the end (that is, if there really is no afterlife). If there is an afterlife, then that would be the greatest thing for me.

I need my own human form and this very life to be an extension of my transcended personality. In other words, since my personality is that of a god, then I expect my physical form and this life to be god-like and meant for me as well. In other words, I expect an immortal body and brain that is no longer prone to death and suffering and I expect to live a life that no longer gives me anymore problems and allows me to fully pursue my composing dream in which I can now forever live my life and compose all these epic/mystical god-like themes I hear in my mind all pumped up in a good mood with no more suffering, death, and depression in my life any longer. But if that is never going to happen, then I am going to dispose of this human form and this life since there is no afterlife of eternal bliss for me.

The one and only thing that makes you and your life great is being powerful, immortal, unstoppable, and forever in a good mood with no depression or any other illness affecting you and bringing you and your life down. That is the one and only thing that makes you and your life great. Not your moral obligations and moral duties such as the helping of other innocent people even when your life is miserable and living for your goals/dreams anyway despite being all depressed, not in a good mood, and having much suffering/illness in your life. To me, that is nothing more than a defective robot or moldy piece of bread that instead needs to be thrown away in order to no longer live a life of any more suffering.

In conclusion, I consider myself to be like a plant rather than a human being. Those things I want in my life are like the water I need to thrive and survive. To call me selfish just because my life is meaningless and miserable without them would be no different than calling a withered plant selfish just because it has withered away due to lack of water. Furthermore, to call such people selfish is the mental health stigma we all see today against suffering and depressed people. I am not a selfish person. I am not cruel towards my family and other innocent people. It's just that those things are what give my personal life meaning and joy and I absolutely need them in my personal life. Without them, I see life no longer worth living anymore. I need to fully enjoy my life and composing through my good moods since they are the only source of joy and meaning for me. I need to live that full and happy and healthy life.

[duszek]

In conclusion, I consider myself to be like a plant rather than a human being. Those things I want in my life are like the water I need to thrive and survive. To call me selfish just because my life is meaningless and miserable without them would be no different than calling a withered plant selfish just because it has withered away due to lack of water. Furthermore, to call such people selfish is the mental health stigma we all see today against suffering and depressed people.

Do you worry about the moral judgement of others ?

In a big famine crisis people sometimes take to canibalism to survive which is extremely selfish.

I would not cast a stone at them, I have not walked in their shoes.
Naturally I would avoid being eaten myself though.

[Jaded Sage]

Write a letter to a politician asking then to legalize morphine for suicidal purposes.

[SpheresOfBalance]

... then we should just throw you away like an unhealthy moldy defective piece of bread since our health, well-being, and happiness is all there is to life...

Keep in mind that if it's the blue/green mold, that's penicillium and is actually quite useful as an antibacterial.

[Jaded Sage]

Do you know what a tathagata is?

[Jaded Sage]

Do you know what a tathagata is? You almost kinda sound like one, with all this talk of tossing away the body.

[jasonwol]

Being happy and healthy is always the most important thing in everyone's life. Considering the present world's situations, being like one is getting tougher and tougher. I think that MozartLink said was very unfortunate, being sick doesn’t mean that he is a waste. I have a friend who is working in a company called Red Bins who provides services of waste removal and bins. he used to tell me that “I’ve been working as junk removal person all my life” does that mean I’m a waste?! I was actually speechless hearing his question. So I don’t think a profession matters in the case of determining how people's are.