reasonvemotion I apologize. Even in the deapths of seriousness I often find levity. Yes it is easy to distance myself. Is that wrong? what sort of psychological issues might I have? Im sure I could find a near infinity of them from just this aspect of myself.
Perhaps there was a time when I was concerned with such things. I found that they got me nowhere. I find that I take myself so seriously that it is funny. My propositions are rediculous but I still have them. theu mean nothing but have to mean something. I have judgements that are true but really hold little water.
It allows me a greater potential for a more authentic interaction with people.
reasonvemotion wrote:I am my own worst enemy.
Now what the hell does this mean? I understand the 'emo' thing and all and the 'cool' self deafeating attitudes. Is this what it means?
I might take it in a most philosophical manner and see that you are making a very profound statement, but then you go on along a (what I see) as a different vector...
Thinking too much, just like too much of anything, can be detrimental to oneself.
Perhaps you could look up the 'aphilosophy thread' and read some of Typists stuff about 'not thinking. i think the group of us went on and on around that silliness for pages and pages and pages.
To erase much of the acquired knowledge or rubbish in the mind, almost like restoring a computer to manufacturer's state,
This is what reminded me of Scientology. Im sure you can see the correlation.
so it becomes simple, clear and your heart is the same, perhaps then truth can come into fruition.
So here it is: Truth. Maybe we can get somewhere with this statement. What is this 'truth' you are speaking about here?
To me, so far in you paragraph, I would respond that you are who you are. You cannot separate 'youself' from your 'thoughts'; niether can you segregate what thoughts are 'desireable you' from 'undesirable'. In as much as it seems that you would like to do this, or that you see some thing of your thoughts that is 'rubbish'm I then suggest that in that you have this idea of yourself, as if there is some segregating yourself from youself, that this is exactly the problem that you are dwelling uopn. That is to say, in as much as you have this Being that is you thinking, and these thoughts somehow figure yourself as some object that you can consider 'what i like of' and 'what I dont like of', you are not such Being, but are caught in the illusion that there is some 'Truth' somehwere that you can come upon or know or understand or not understand, that will make you 'complete' or 'comfortable' with youself.
It has certainly eluded me up to this point as I find it almost impossible to clear and still my mind for a substantial amount of time. In Buddhism it is the most difficult of all tasks to achieve.
It is my understanding that the approach that you are indicating is not really what the appraoch is about. Yours indicates some method of comeing to oneself. The intent of the practice actually moves upon an ulterior (sp?) or alternative motive: that such a practice, while indeed eliciting an ability, such as weightliftng yields stringer muscles, but perhaps in the reverse in the case of thinking, the 'larger vehicle' is coming to terms with the fact that a person merely exists, and this existence bars nothing from itself and so where the 'practice' ends, then real existance can proceed.
I am finding that people tend to be caugt up in the insult that they pick up from my comments prior to seeing how the comment yeilds a reaction. the primary and overwhelming assumption is, in many if not most cases, that I am being an ass an trying to insult, and so they take the insult.
Perhaps the reason that Chaz's manouvers, that i have experienced in my interactions with him, only served and serve to spawn more rigourous and effective discussions, so far as to what I have gotten from them, is because my assumption is that I am not insulted, but that both of us are working together in a problem. As to what his actual intent or feelings at the time, I consider them secondarily, and actually I dont really care, because what has occurred is that I have learned and can learn and our interactions have yeilded some sort of common respect between us (even though he can be an ass at times).