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Throughout my life I have lived behind a wall.

The wall keeps me from the real world when I am frightened.

I am definitely behind that wall at this moment.

When I was young I was very sure of myself and comfortable.

Then reality knocked-down the wall between me and reality.

I was lucky enough at the time to begin reading a Russian philosopher.

I stepped into a few moments without the protection or security of the wall.

It was like a different dimension.

Things that I experienced & knew, I cannot know now. I cannot feel.

And from that point on, I thought I would chase that dragon.

I can't.

For the wall grew back. Built mechanically from fear. Raw fear.

Built as a protection.

And I can't break it from the inside.


And nothing else matters.










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Bill Wiltrack wrote:.







Throughout my life I have lived behind a wall.

The wall keeps me from the real world when I am frightened.

I am definitely behind that wall at this moment.

When I was young I was very sure of myself and comfortable.

Then reality knocked-down the wall between me and reality.

I was lucky enough at the time to begin reading a Russian philosopher.

I stepped into a few moments without the protection or security of the wall.

It was like a different dimension.

Things that I experienced & knew, I cannot know now. I cannot feel.

And from that point on, I thought I would chase that dragon.

I can't.

For the wall grew back. Built mechanically from fear. Raw fear.

Built as a protection.

And I can't break it from the inside.


And nothing else matters.










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That's the first real thing I've heard from you in some time Bill. I can't help you, as it's your journey. But you have just regained my respect, and I hope your journey goes well.

Best wishes, Bill.