popeye1945 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 11, 2022 12:30 am
Age wrote: ↑Sun Dec 11, 2022 12:09 am
popeye1945 wrote: ↑Sat Dec 10, 2022 8:42 pm
With complete loss of memory there is still a basic identification with an anonymous I. Where you do not know who you are or who anyone else is, you just know that you're alive and it feels pretty dam good.
Some people with 'loss of memory' appear to get 'confused' and/or somewhat 'irritable', which, from what I have observed, is NOT that so-called 'dam good' AT ALL.
My personal experience was having repeated experiences but relatively brief before memory came flooding back to me.
While being 'awake' and 'aware', without 'thought', as 'you' are saying and explaining here, 'memory' is just 'thought' after all, I found to be the most Truly BLISSFUL 'experience'.
popeye1945 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 11, 2022 12:30 am
The initial experience is feeling the vitality of life with no burdens of memory to define who or what you are.
Some just call this 'thought free Awareness'.
But I found that AFTER I KNEW what thee ACTUAL and IRREFUTABLE answer to the question, Who am 'I'?' IS EXACTLY, that I can NOW 'feel' the ABSOLUTE VITALITY of ALL of Life, WITH 'memory'. But, as 'you' were SAYING, WITHOUT the 'memory/thoughts' the experience is PURE BLISS.
However, I have found and learned that 'memory', or 'thoughts' of the past, provide 'I' with ACTUAL PROOF, which is necessary to KNOW 'things', FOR SURE.
I, NOW, do NOT use 'memory/thought', first, to LOOK AT and SEE 'the world', because of the 'disorientation' and 'distortion' doing so can cause and create, so INSTEAD I LOOK AT and SEE 'the world' in 'thought free Awareness', or just through thee Truly OPEN Mind, and THEN use 'past experiences', 'thought', or 'memory' to VERIFY or DISPROVE what I am LOOKING AT and/or OBSERVING.
popeye1945 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 11, 2022 12:30 am
It is briefly having some weight taken off.
But there is only 'weight', or 'confusion', there in 'you' because 'you' do NOT YET KNOW who NOR what 'you' NOR 'I' am, EXACTLY.
But 'you' are Right the 'weight' is TAKEN OFF when just NOT 'thinking', and there is NO 'memory', and so NO 'thing' to DISTRACT, nor DISTORT, thee ACTUAL BEAUTY of 'living', and 'being alive', itself.
popeye1945 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 11, 2022 12:30 am
Lasting for a longer period no doubt would be alarming, complete disorientation,
But in absolute 'thought free Awareness' there is NO disorientation AT ALL. This is because there is ONLY absolute Awareness, happening.
It is the actual False, Wrong, or Incorrect 'thought' or 'thinking', in other words, it is having 'memory', which do NOT answer questions, like, for example, who am I? which is what causes confusion, distortion, distraction, and disorientation here.
popeye1945 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 11, 2022 12:30 am
but it would still be an anonymous I that is disoriented and certainly in the long-term unpleasant.
Yes it was for 'me' too. That was, UNTIL these 'things' here become MUCH CLEARER and/or absolutely CRYSTAL CLEAR, one of which was; Coming-to-KNOW thy 'I', which HAD BEEN completely 'anonymous', PREVIOUSLY.
By the way "popeye1945", THANK YOU for the further explanation and elaboration. This further explanation/elaboration made, what you said previous, far CLEARER and made far MORE SENSE to 'me' now.