Well you are persistent (as I am, I guess).
Yes, we share this doggedness! I like that about you, you're durable.
But I'm still left with too many questions...
If your desire is to explore philosophy, then you should organize your question list, prioritize the questions, and then carefully and patiently use reason to analyze the questions most important to you.
If your desire is to explore
aphilosophy, then the challenge is letting the questions go.
I'm not trying to tell you what you should choose, only trying to make clear, aphilosophy is not philosophy. Again, please note the "a" at the beginning of the word aphilosophy. The "a". Keep your eye on that "a".
Philosophy => dive in to the questions.
aPhilosophy => toss the questions in to the air and let the wind blow them away.
Philosophy => understanding thoughts
aPhilosophy => surrendering thoughts
You are experiencing a VERY common problem. You are trying to think your way to aphilosophy, a discipline that is explicitly about explorations outside of thought. Thus, every question you set up to analyze takes you farther away from where you are trying to go.
Please observe. Letting the questions go can be quite challenging. It can be more challenging than analyzing the questions.
First of all, can humans actually "experience outside of thought?"
Yes.
Have you, yourself, ever been in a situation (short of general anaesthetic) in which you could honestly say that there was no "thought" going on at all -- in which your mind was not doing some evaluation, some comparison, some recognition?
Yes.
But, I suggest not getting too caught up in chasing a pure state of non-thought. It's much more practical to focus on learning how to turn down the volume of thought. Little baby steps in that direction are the serious course of action.
More importantly, given what (little) seems to be known about the mind these days (see Bernard Baars, in particular) do you think that there are areas of even the most adept guru's brain that are not assiduously doing what they do anyway, so often in the absence of his conscious awareness even when not meditating? I should be very surprised. (Probably my biggest reason for surprise is that even the most adept guru "remembers" to stop meditating, or else he would remain in a "perfectly unaware" state forever.)
I really don't know.
What is it about looking at a picture of my partner that you think is so wildly different from looking at my partner?
Your partner is alive. The photo is dead.
If there is no big difference between the two, wouldn't it be cost efficient to get rid of the partner? Think of the savings!
Many of the same emotions, memories, thoughts are evoked in either case. And the fact is, if you know anything at all about how vision works, and how visual images are actually processed in the brain (and it has been shown if these processes aren't activated early in life, somebody with normal visual equipment will not see consciously but will "see" unconsciously and be able to correctly locate things -- it's called "blindsight"), then you know that mind is deeply involved in the process from the get-go. We do not experience anything directly -- everything is processed through a mind that is fundamentally inter-wired to the processes that make our senses real to us. It is, for example, extremely well-known that smell can instantly evoke the deepest of memories and emotions, usually completely outside of any control by the individual.
Ok, whatever you say.