Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 9:42 am
It has been my own experience that thrashing back and forth between hate and love is the same one energy. That's my theory anyway, I'm not asking anyone to agree with that.
I imagined you were going to say that... and I agree in part.

Everything is made up of the same energy. At the same time, that energy can manifest in so many ways. I guess, being human, enables us to experience the same as different.
By the way, I really enjoyed your clear and easy-to-follow response. At this moment it feels like you and I could be sitting under a tree somewhere, having a cosmic conversation.
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 9:42 amFor me personally, there is no other game to play. I didn't make myself alive, so I have no other option than to play the game of being alive.
So, you're saying that, for you, there's no other game to play associated with being alive, right?
That sounds like (if I may suggest) that's because that's the game you are committed to.
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 9:42 amI can hate the experience with just as much passion as I can love the experience.
I get that. I can see and experience that, myself. Isn't that the amazing thing about being alive? From all the sameness, we can create and experience so much difference? It's all like 'colorful paint' that we can create with. It's all like single cells that can turn into so many different things. It's all atoms... all the same... with the capability for vast manifestations. Magnificent! And yes, within the confines of being human, it can feel terribly restricted. But this is how we experience all the sensory stuff humans are capable of, yes?
Here is ANOTHER one with SO MUCH MORE to learn and understand here.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Flesh and blood... capable of feeling euphoria and capable of being hacked up. The glory of life may be to experience it passionately while we can.
"dontaskme" is experiencing Life VERY passionately.
As can be CLEARLY SEEN here "dontaskme' 'passionately' HATES Life.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
For reasons I don't know, my awareness is here in this human body.
When, and if, 'you' become NOT SO CLOSED, then the reason WHY there IS awareness in the human body becomes CRYSTAL CLEAR.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
I've experienced everything from absolute bliss to complete and utter despair. Is it possible to see the beauty in all of it?
And, it is ALSO possible to see the ugliness in all of it, as well. As can be CLEARLY SEEN.
When, and if, 'you', "lacewing", ever become Truly OPEN ALSO, then 'you' too can SEE the True possibilities here.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Personally, I think so. An incredible experience playing out across a blank screen of so much possibility.
WHY does what is just NATURALLY happening and occurring HERE seem like an 'incredible' experience, to 'you'?
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
There is so much that I (this awareness) can inject into it!
AND, so much of what 'you' inject is False, Wrong, and Incorrect. As can be CLEARLY SEEN above.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
There have been many chapters. I practice my craft of creating. Like playing a game over and over, hoping for better odds while using my improved capabilities. Remember how I've previously spoken about living on a beautiful woodland property that I developed?
So, here we have one who thinks or BELIEVES that 'it' can create MORE 'beauty' than Nature, Itself.
I wonder if this one would STOP to CONSIDER that 'it' is just wanting to 'develop' Nature, Itself, into what it, ALONE, wants and desires, and considers to be 'beautiful'?
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Well, I recently moved! I let it go. Such a wonderfully magical place! Yet, maintaining it (my creation) was becoming a burden.
JUST MAYBE IF 'you' had left Nature alone, then It would NOT have OVERTAKEN and OVERRIDDEN 'your' miserable and fruitless attempt to 'develop' It.
'creating' things for 'your' OWN personal desires and wants is just a fruitless, greedy, and VERY SELFISH way of life and living anyway.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
So, I sold it to some ecstatic people (they get to create with it now), and I'm exploring new territory... on lots of levels. It appears that I use the 'sameness', the 'one energy', to continually create with through this human form. What will I create 'here' and 'now'? It's all unknown, but I'm excited to see. I don't imagine there are any limits to it.
There are NO limits, to the ways 'you', VERY GREEDY and SELFISH adult human beings can 'create' 'things' for 'your' GREEDY and SELFISH personal DESIRES, while DESTROYING thee One and ONLY home that 'you' HAVE and ALL SHARE.
But carry on as 'you' are, money is the most important thing here, right?
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 9:42 am
I suppose I've explored everything to be honest.
Perhaps 'everything' you've considered so far?

Might there always be more -- even from/within the human experience -- in an expanding Universe of so many levels and possibilities?
LOL Here we have ANOTHER one who thinks or BELIEVES that thee Universe IS EXPANDING.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Hey, I ask myself these questions too! And there are times I cannot see beyond a particular experience/perspective.
At least this one is Honest about how CLOSED 'it' REALLY IS.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
It's all temporary and it's always shifting.
What does the 'It' refer to here?
Are 'you' NOT YET AWARE that some of 'this' is NOT 'temporary' AT ALL?
'your', 'it is ALWAYS shifting' comment in your sentence SHOWS that 'you' ARE.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
I think we can ride the flow rather than standing in place and feeling jarred by all of the natural movement going on.
'you' THINK 'we' can do this, but 'you' VERY RARELY do this "yourself".
'you' have some of the most CLOSED and thus FIXED IN PLACE views and BELIEFS in this forum "lacewing".
Which have REALLY JARRED 'you', as 'we' have been continually MOVING ALONG HERE.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 9:42 amI've particularly enjoyed exploring living as a recluse, in solitude, alone, which does apparently seem to suit my character very much.
I have enjoyed that a lot in my life too. It's not part of my life now, though, as I've embarked on a partnership adventure.
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 9:42 amFalling in love with the opposite sex because I am not gay, is another capability I have explored which is a very blissful experience for me especially when my love for the man is requited back to me with mutual passion and commitment. The love experience is probably one of the most pleasurable experiences I have explored while being alive, but then it can also be one of the most painful experiences when the love is unrequited.
That's my experience too. It's different now, though, than I've experienced before. The relationship I'm in is more about creating a kind partnership that serves us both, hopefully for the remainder of our lives.
Feeling the NEED to be WITH someone ELSE SHOWS and REVEALS the ABUSE one has gone through, previously.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
We both left our previous lives behind to explore new territory together. It was terribly brave... and utterly overwhelming at times... but the rewards have been beyond imagination.
And there has absolutely been NO greediness NOR selfishness AT ALL on your parts, correct "lacewing"?
Also, WHY is just doing some thing different being, so-called, 'terribly brave'?
And, one would NOT feel 'utterly overwhelmed' by just doing some thing different if they were NOT 'trying to' FIGHT what is just the NATURAL process of things.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
We are really good to each other (most of the time

).
So, 'you' two have STILL NOT YET grown up. But this is the result of ABUSE.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
I've never had a kinder and more supportive partner. He shows that he adores me every day.
WHY do 'you' even NEED to feel 'adored'?
The answer, by the way, is BECAUSE 'you' STILL do NOT YET KNOW who NOR what 'you' NOR 'I' AM, EXACTLY.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
This is who he has become despite struggling with alcoholism many years ago...
LOL 'you' state this like people who liked to drink alcohol previously can NOT 'love' EVER AGAIN.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
and he is open to exploring the potential of the Universe with me as it manifests in the life we are creating together now.
WHY do 'you' keep mentioning the 'potential of the Universe' like there ever was some sort of limit here?
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
I treasure him, and I'm continually exploring 'more' that I can become individually too.
WHY do 'you' NOT 'treasure' EVERY one EQUALLY?
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
There just seems to continually be ways for this 'sameness' to keep manifesting, ya know?
But it has been "dontaskme" that has been TELLING 'you' that there is ONLY this ONENESS, or 'sameness'. And, OBVIOUSLY, this SAME ONENESS IS ALWAYS 'manifesting'.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Even when I think I've experienced the pinnacle, there's more!
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Thinking or BELIEVING there was some 'pinnacle'.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
I am SO GRATEFUL... and I think that has been an important key for me!
BUT, IF 'you' had been ABUSED, like some "others" HAVE, then 'you' would NOT be SO GRATEFUL, and WOULD HATE Life, as much as they DO.
'you' come to LEARN and UNDERSTAND this Fact, through FULL EMPATHY, which comes NATURALLY when being Truly and FULLY OPEN.
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
I've heard it said: if we don't have gratitude for what we have, we don't get more.
Some could say that 'you' are now just RUBBING 'it' IN, to "dontaskme".
Seriously, HOW could ANY one be 'grateful' for absolutely ANY thing when they absolutely HATE living, and Life, Itself?
What do 'you' imagine that they would be 'grateful' for, EXACTLY?
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
It's probably easier for people to imagine/believe how much worse things can get... and then they see that is so.
So, when there is NOT one single thing that one LIKES about being alive and living, what do 'you' imagine they could think of that could get worse?
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
But why not practice the opposite, equally true potential? How much better/greater things can get... and see that is so! Imagine that the most blissful way you've ever felt can be magnified and experienced even greater. Why not?
WHY NOT imagine and consider how 'it' feels for one when they just HATE Life, Itself?
HOW about INSTEAD of TELLING "others" what 'you' do, and PREACHING to them that they 'should' do that ALSO, 'you' STOP and CONSIDER the "other"?
JUST MAYBE just doing 'this' VERY SIMPLE and EASY little thing WILL make Life, and living, MUCH BETTER for EVERY 'one', (of 'you').
Lacewing wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:06 pm
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Nov 18, 2022 9:42 amIt's a bumpy rollercoaster ride to nowhere, and the thrill is thinking and believing it is leading somehwere other than a dead end.
I think it helps to let go of any specific ideas about where it leads or what it's limited to. Be in the moment with gratitude and allow the potential for more gratitude to manifest.
And when 'you' are on 'your' 'death bed' are 'you' going to be GRATEFUL for 'dying' AS WELL?