Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
Age wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 11:34 am
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
I can understand Iwannaplato's remarks.
So could EVERY one here.
But this ONLY DISTRACTS from the Fact that what the words about 'living in hell and being tortured and suffering forever' are BEING COMPLETELY MISUNDERSTOOD and MISINTERPRETED here.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
I have experienced horror and terror worse than my own personal death.
you KNOW 'this' HOW, EXACTLY?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
The horror was so much that I could not sleep nor speak of it to anyone.
But you ARE speaking of 'it' here now.
But what 'horror'? Will you let us IN what was, supposedly, so HORRIFIC and TERRIFYING to you that it was, allegedly worse than your OWN personal death?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
I do not wish such experiences on ANYONE.
Will you EVER let us IN on what you are ON ABOUT, EXACTLY?
If no, then WHY ALLUDE to 'it' here?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
They are more horrible than ANYONE should suffer, at least not someone who has never knowingly murdered another human being. I have murdered no one that I know of.
Well this can be REFUTED.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
Why am I getting the most horrible visions imaginable?
UNTIL you START TO INFORM us of what these so-called 'horrible visions imaginable' ARE OF, EXACTLY, then we can NOT BEGIN TO INFORM you of WHY you are GETTING 'them'.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
What did I do wrong to deserve them?
Being CLOSED and Dishonest.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Fri Apr 21, 2023 11:01 pm
I have had them before. They have come back to me in different forms many times. But they are always too horrible to think about.
But there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AT ALL that is so-called 'too horrible' to just 'think about'. Well NONE that I KNOW OF, SO FAR.
MAYBE you can SHOW us OTHERWISE.
I have had visions of the end of all life on Earth.
Well absolutely NOTHING terrifying NOR horrific, so far.
Lots of people have had 'visions' of the end of ALL 'life' on earth.
I have, and still can have, LOTS of 'visions' of the end of ALL 'life' on earth, IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS. But, absolutely NONE of them are horrific NOR terrifying.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I have had visions of masses of human beings resorting to cannibalism because the food chain that once supplied us with what we needed to eat to survive has collapsed.
Absolutely NO terror nor horror here.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I have had visions of hospitals euthanizing patients.
So just a 'vision' of what ACTUALLY HAPPENED hitherto, and HAPPENS, the days when this is being written.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I have had visions of meat packing plants throwing humans into the grinders that once ground cattle.
So, just being 'fed' INTO what 'they', themselves, had ACTUALLY CREATED and CAUSED.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I have had visions of "diseases" being used as reasons to bring people into hospitals where they will be euthanized. I have had visions of demons, aliens, dinosaurs, extinct creatures from past epochs and other strange apparitions starting to (but not completely) materializing out of air in front of me. I have seen visions of the end of humanity and our "spirits" being uploaded into the Internet. I have had visions of endless war where humans tried to be charitable to others by killing them instead of putting them in meatgrinders.
And possibly worst of all, I have had "delusions" that there is a God and that God is either angry at me personally because I have watched pornography and cursed his name out of frustration and anger, or else God is sending me messages that I cannot bear to give humanity or else have no idea how to give to other people.
Absolutely NOTHING AT ALL to be concerned about here. Anyway, are there ANY, so-called, 'messages' that you would give 'us' here?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I don't wish others to go through what I have been through.
you ARE AWARE right that 'they' are just 'visions', and that 'you' have NOT ACTUALLY 'gone through' some 'thing'?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I have spent times in the mental hospital with sheer terror in my heart
The ONLY 'thing', more or less, that goes in, and through, the heart IS 'blood'.
'Terror' is just A 'feeling', the result of some OTHER 'thing', which, because of 'past experiences' EVERY 'feeling' IS PERFECTLY 'NORMAL'.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
that these things were going on. It was horrible. Was it worse than death, I don't know. And I'm afraid to find out.
This is a COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY 'feeling'.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
There Age, you asked for me to release my visions. I have done so at your request. Now you tell me if those visions were worth releasing. I have kept them to myself and had to deal with them periodically.
Re-leasing 'them', to 'me', was VERY WORTHY.
Was 'releasing' 'them', to 'you', of ANY WORTH?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
The medicine I'm taking only prevents my mind from forming those visions, at least most of the time.
Considering that there is NO 'mind', which HAS 'you' as 'its' OWNER nor POSSESSOR, the term 'my mind' IS a MISNOMER and a COMPLETELY False, Wrong, and Incorrect term continually being FED TO 'you', human beings, in the days when this is being written.
So, you do NOT KNOW, FOR SURE, that it is the 'medicine' that is ACTUALLY STOPPING the 'visions' you have.
And, the creating and selling of MORE and MORE 'medicines' is JUST A/NOTHER 'business', so do NOT be surprised if MORE, and MORE, 'medicines' are PRE-SCRIBED TO you.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
It seems to help me relax but then I relax to the point where I can't muster the will to do anything.
Do you STILL, ALWAYS, so call 'muster the will' TO breathe, eat, and drink?
If yes, then what OTHER 'things' do you, REALLY, NEED to do?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
Even on meds like Prozac, Abilify, Latuda, Wellbutrin, Depakote, and Seroquel (just to name some of the different meds I've been on) the visions sometimes come to me regardless of taking them.
Okay.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I have even gone off the meds at times, thinking that I am not mentally ill.
EVERY adult, in the days when this is being written, is MENTALLY ILL in some form or capacity.
AND, because of 'what' HAS BECOME ACTUALLY 'ill' here, 'medicines' are NOT the BEST 'medicine' here. But NEVER take 'my' word for 'this'.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I was off meds for a year once and did reasonably well interacting with others, then the visions came and I drove to a facility to hospitalize myself.
Okay, but 'what' CAUSED the 'visions' to come back, EXACTLY?
If you do NOT YET KNOW, then I suggest FINDING OUT 'that'. THEN you WILL have THE PREVENTION, which is ALWAYS BETTER than THE CURE.
Oh, and by the way, 'medicine' will NEVER help you FIND OUT 'what' CAUSED the visions in the first place. BUT, Truly OPEN and Honest discussions, WITH the RIGHT people WILL.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
The hospital FORCE me to take meds against my will at the time.
As 'they' DID, back then, WHEN 'business' and 'money MAKING' WAS SEEN as being VERY IMPORTANT 'things', in Life, TO SOME.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
My rights to the autonomy of my own body were violated.
Now we are GETTING INTO Truly HORRIFYING and TERRIFYING territory here.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I did not pursue legal action against the hospital when I got out.
WHY?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
Should I have sued them for violating my autonomy?
NOT FOR 'money'. But, TO PREVENT the SAME happening to "others", then YES.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
My dad, a cousin of his and my grandmother (my mother's mother) all died in hospitals.
'This' HAPPENS.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
The hospitals did not cure them of illness.
Some 'illnesses' ARE INCURABLE.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
The hospitals prodded and probed, took blood samples, did Xrays and other exams and all those people in my family died of "pneumonia".
At EVERY stage of evolution what was once what the human body so-called 'died' OF, becomes CURABLE and NOT a so-called 'death sentence' AT ALL.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
At least that is what I have been told. My dad went in for surgery of a broken hip. My grandmother went in because it was said she had dementia or Alzheimers and my I don't remember what my cousin went in for but it wasn't "pneumonia" it was supposedly "routine surgery".
Okay. 'This' CERTAINLY HELPS in somewhat EXPLAINING 'the visions' YOU HAVE.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
We never brought legal action for "malpractice" against anyone.
Okay.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
My family and I accepted their deaths, even though the deaths seemed to have been caused by acquiring germs or diseases while in the hospital.
Well considering the Fact that human bodies DO GO TO hospitals BECAUSE they have acquired germs and/or diseases, then it could be EXPECTED that IN hospitals there are LOTS of germs and/or diseases.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
What else are we supposed to do?
WHO is 'we', and IN REGARDS TO 'what', EXACTLY?
Also, was there some sort of PRESUMPTION that these 'people' were NEVER GOING TO 'die' ANYWAY?
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
I have kept these visions to myself out of fear that others would think they were true, or else out of fear of causing the same horror in the minds of others.
1. Considering there are NONE of these so-called 'mind' 'things' OF "others", there is ABSOLUTELY NO NEED to worry NOR fear that your OWN visions could END UP 'in the minds of others'.
2. I am pretty CERTAIN NO one would think that YOUR 'visions' WERE TRUE.
3. I am STILL NOT SURE 'what horror' there IS or WAS in 'those visions' OF YOURS here.
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sat Apr 22, 2023 1:22 pm
Did I not do the right thing to keep those visions to myself?
IF 'you' WANT to GET Truly BETTER, then KEEPING 'those visions' to "your" OWN 'self,' ONLY, is ABSOLUTELY and CERTAINLY NOT the 'right thing' TO DO.