Phil8659 wrote: ↑Fri Jul 08, 2022 1:45 pm
Now, a lot of people complain that they simply cannot understand me, and that I am some kind of arrogant ass-hole, and I am actually the first to agree with them, except I appear to be arrogant because what I know is true, I will not budge from.
So, have you ever imagined what is has been like for me to learn it? A long time ago, I was asked to teach judgement, teach what I knew I had no knowledge of. To ask me to do that involved solving problems that no one in history had solved before. So, you think I am arrogant, think about that. How absurd to be asked to do that which you do not believe could be done!
When I was in training, as a kid, I asked a question, which seemed simple enough to me. Here is the answer I got back. I was standing in the dark, suddenly I was hit by a bright light that penetrated me completely, I could not even close my eyes, it terrified me. I tried to run, but suddenly, the light dimmed down and I was in a field of beautiful flowers. What was the question I asked? I asked, why do people subjectively integrate with reality? I was very young at the time. So, what was the answer? I would not know for decades. Our whole body gives us the light, perception, and it is terrifying, a mind has to block a lot of it out. Eventually though, one learns to control it, and to do beautiful things with it. Now, many, when they try to understand my words do exactly the same thing, put a bag over my head, but it won't work. The Menorah of seven lamps is a metaphor for the seven life support systems of our body. All of the metaphors using 7 in the Bible, refer to perception.
I have had temper tantrums myself, demanding to be taught in plain, comprehensible English, but with one sentence, I was emotionally demolished for it. I was asked, in plain English, What do you think of your progress? I immediately burst into a passion of tears. I know I am stupid, yet I asked the smartest thing man has ever known, if I could have my lessons my way. Imagine the arrogance of that? Yup, arrogant ass I may be.
I have, asked myself, during my lessons over the years, why in the hell would I be given a task no one else in history could solve? That which asked me had to be some kind of delusion, a delusion which could show me things I could not possibly know, so, my questions could never reflect fact. And I have been under a lot of pressure to do what I considered that I was too stupid and slow to do.
So, you have my work, I post it all as part of my personal learning and doing what I was asked, am I too stupid? Answer anyway you like. You cannot curse me any worse than the countless times I cursed myself, and even the one who seemed to believe that I could do it.
Grammar is the prophet, given to man. Grammar, Judgment is the salvation of mankind. Only a fool imagines that it is some particular man, some particular doctrine, some particular theory, some particular organization. It is what your own mind has to do, by biological fact.
