Please excuse the length of this... every bit of it is honest and heartfelt from a state of presence.
What we (you and I) make of what we see is different, of course. We see a lot of the same things, but our perspectives about it are formed (perhaps) by the way we connect the dots...and there are countless ways to connect the dots...perhaps making ALL WAYS seem legitimate, depending on where one stands?
I do not know why I see, feel, and connect the dots the way I do. It seriously was part of me from the very beginning of my life, as I have memories from being a baby and young child, in which I assessed what I was observing. I could immediately sense where the danger and weaknesses were in the adults I was surrounded by. I also could tell who was genuine, and would protect me. And I could see how afraid the adults were... which maybe is why I felt compassion and love for them. They couldn't help how they were thinking and being. They were victims of their own experiences/perspectives, maybe.
Amidst all of this, I felt -- what I can only describe as -- LOVE. Even as a child, I saw my Father's ego... and how fragile it made him... and I wanted to comfort him, by "being a child" for him. Even when I actually knew things that he did not, I would keep it to myself. It was a different dynamic with my Mother. I loved her despite the role she played on the stage -- but she felt dangerous to me, so my energy was focused on being a step ahead of her, in order to keep myself safe. Despite all of this, I felt happiness and love as my natural states. Maybe not in the exact moments of abuse... but as soon as that passed, I returned to my natural states that were not dependent on other people doing anything for me.
I've shared this to try to show that what I feel and how I perceive is not based on other people -- it is despite other people. Hopefully this can give insight on why I say what I do here in your thread.
Like you, I see all kinds of things in people... including myself. My adult "self" has evolved to view all of it on a stage -- without anything eternally serious -- and so I dance on the stage too, without forgetting (usually) my natural states. I honestly feel like I can step off the stage at any moment. I don't mean "die"... I mean: stop believing in a story or a performance. I can be in the moment, with another person, and feel LOVE.
It doesn't matter who they are! I could do it with Trump!

Honestly! (I bet his supporters couldn't do that! Isn't that funny?!) That is truly my perspective of love. It sets everything aside... all the drama and the performances on the stage... all of the ideas of "separation"... all of that illusion is set aside... and what remains is, well, beyond words. The feeling for me is of a connectedness full of (what I can only describe as) a form of love.
So this is why I say in response to your comments and the thread topic:
For me...
> Love is not simply a belief. It can be that, and it can describe something else.
> I do not need anyone to complete me. What I want from a man is to experience an even greater fullness in life as a result of who he is and his male energy combined with who I am and my female energy to connect and co-create magically. Is that really too much to ask?
> Perhaps the greatest gift we can give and receive is our ability to connect and co-create -- as opposed to separating and/or lording over others or being lorded over.
> Pretense is partially what we're here for, it seems. Being able to remember/know it is pretense, seems empowering and valuable. But being disgusted to a large degree by all of the pretense seems unproductive.
> Turning up one's nose to this experience means not being welcoming, accepting, grateful, etc. Hating this experience... being disappointed by this experience... to a large degree, seems unproductive.
> My view: The challenge and the gift of this life is to see what we can do with it regardless of everything going on. The more you can do despite all that is around you, the more accomplished and capable you become. I love the Sufi saying that goes something like this: Anyone can go into a cave to become "enlightened". But the one who can stand in the middle of a crowded street and feel peace, THAT is a master!"
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Sep 06, 2019 1:14 pm
For me, I prefer to substitute the word LOVE for PRESENCE.
I can be present with people without feeling like I have to love them or not. And vice versa, I would like others to feel they can be present with me without the added pressure on them to feel like they have to love me or not.
Sure! I totally get that. I don't feel like I HAVE TO try to love someone, though. Hopefully what I've shared above in my post shows that I often just feel it... I'm not trying! (Perhaps it's a different kind of thing than love... but I don't know how else to describe it.)
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Sep 06, 2019 1:14 pm
Can men and women live like that with each other? by just being present with each other without expectation or wanting the other to change? I doubt those relationships can exist.
It would be wonderful... even if only some of the time... but I suppose that, at some points, the earthly stage rises up no matter what. That's why it's so important to choose who we get on stage with if it's going to be something more significant to us.
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Sep 06, 2019 1:14 pmWe can have fun, but also it's not always fun, sometimes it's horrifically not fun at all.
Yes. And where we experience it from -- how REAL it feels -- affects the intensity of it. Sometimes the less real it is, the more fun or humorous it can be. We can say "Look at the show! Wow! Amazing!" My best friends are people I can laugh with about troubling things. We may start out crying how awful something is, and before we know it, we're laughing at the absurdity and the show! That is a wonderful thing to share and experience with someone! Life, with all of its delusion, absurdity, blindness, bloated egos, twisted creativity, and even horror, can be seen as very funny. It's helpful to keep that perspective on hand.
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Sep 06, 2019 1:14 pmAnd what we can accomplish will all be lost. Everything we see and experience and gain...we lose, we lose it all, as everything we see and experience, is nothing more than an empty passing show that defaults to nothing in the end.
As you are aware of at times, there is nothing actually being gained or lost. It is the experience of the moment -- that is precious -- and then a new moment comes along. There is always MORE to be experienced, regardless of who it might be with. The EXPERIENCE is the gift, perhaps! That's what this human thing is all about. What can we experience, and what can we do with that? Then we're gone. Sweet.
Dontaskme wrote: ↑Fri Sep 06, 2019 1:14 pmJust reply to what you want here Lacy, or nothing at all
Thanks. This was a really interesting exploration/communication FOR ME, inspired by your comments and questions. Wishing you a lovely day on or off the stage.
