I don't waste my time on simpletons of your caliber, unless they have something new to offer. Your christian nihilism is old and worn-out.
This shall be my last response to you, unless you offer an angle which is more sophisticated or creative.
Notvacka wrote:So, your aim is to observe and digest, to be an attentive student in this reality show of humanity?
Yes...and to use what I observe to benefit me in the areas I aspire to benefit from.
My ambitions are not communal ambitions.
Notvacka wrote:I suppose everybody does that, one way or another.
Yes, some bury their heads in the sand hoping it'll all go away, and others look closer to figure out what it is and how to get around it.
It's a good thing burying your head is beneficial to others, or else your ass would be grass.
Notvacka wrote:Fair enough. It's nice to believe that you know what you are doing. I don't think I quite understand the notion of losing oneself though. It implies some kind of ownership, or at least some sort of grasp, in the first place. You claim to be concerned mainly with reality; do you consider yourself "real"? I'm not talking about your physical body of course, but your "self", that which stops you from going further, lest you lose it.
Yes, I consider myself real, girl.
Your nihilism is peeking, again.
What is real is what is active.
What is active is what is real...even a delusion is real as a delusion.
The world is what is active and perceived, via sensual data interpreted by the brain, in reference to what lies outside the brain's willful command.
I know you want to denounce that world as an illusion to be done with it, poor nihilist, but here's a test for you:
Dick a hole, stick your head in it, and pretend the lion coming your way is an illusion...or jump off a building and flap your hands, pretending gravity is an illusion.
Your self-hating nihilism cannot save you, girl, it can only make you oblivious and numb to the world you deny but cannot escape.
No, losing one's self only demands an ambiguous delusion.
Take the inebriating effects of love, and how it numbs the brain to facilitate boding and to repress the earlier evolved fight/flight mechanism: you don't meed to comprehend it, look at how many deify it and mystify it...all you have to do is surrender to it and lose yourself in it.
All base minds, animals included, lose themselves in emotion and instinct and sensation.
The more sense of self you have, the more self-conscious you are, the more sophisticated the mind, all the more unable it is to give itself up to an illusion or an otherness or an ideal or a promise with no reference to anything experienced.
Notvacka wrote:Only the person who knows no hope, knows no fear, since they are the two faces of uncertainty. You are either hopeful or afraid, usually both, unless you are indifferent, in which case you might as well be dead already.
How dramatically Christian of you.
Yes, hope is an antidote to fear.
But then there are delusional hopes and more realistic ones.
I hope to live another day in comparison to I hope to live forever in a beyond more 'real' world and an after life... an after death life, is also a hope.
The more extreme the fear and the more unable the mind is to cope with it, all the more fantastic the hope given or adopted or constructed, must be.
Notvacka wrote:You speak of fear as if it was an entirely bad thing. Some simple fears, such as fear of heights, are rational and make us duly cautious in dangerous situations. And without fear, there can be no bravery.
No, i speak of fear as what it is: the primary emotion out of which all emotions stem from. Fear, like love and hate and envy, is either constructive or destructive, depending on how it overwhelms or not reason.
In a Christians mind it is overwhelming to the point where he or she can use one standard when judging all things and then change the rules and completely forget how to judge when it comes to immortality and God and goodness and paradise.
Orwell called it "doublethink", I call it compartmentalization or a form of schizophrenia.
The ability to use one set of rules to judge one thing and a completely other set of rules, contradictory ones in fact, to judge another, with the only justification being, but never admitted, that it feels good or one cannot live without God or one is afraid of a world where morals are subjective and survival mechanisms, or one cannot accept death as the end, is what Schizophrenia starts as and is perpetuated by social systems.
Schizophrenia, after all, is a disjunction between perception and interpretation.
When one hears voices in their head whether they call this God speaking to them or aliens makes little difference.
For instance, if you are going to base your conceptions on a principle like a "beginning" or a cause that has no effect, or a start...then you should be, at least, able to define and show an example of one.
Show us a one, for instance, upon which all modern science is based.
The problem is the human brain and the dualism and absolutes it needs to make sense of a fluid world.
Language, being representations, symbols of these dualistic absolutes, also fails to adequately express the world, and so relies on constructing absolutes which have no reference to reality, like:
Here, Now, I, God, One, Whole, Beginning, End, Zero...if taken literally language buries reason in mysticism.
Language, like all art-forms, is symbolic, metaphorical.
Notvacka wrote:So you keep saying. I gather that a nihilist is a person who doesn't believe in anything or something. Since I have already stated several beliefs, what is it that you think I don't believe in, that you think I should?
No little girl, a nihilist is someone who denounces or denies the world as it is, replacing it with a more preferable, ideal one. A nihilist is someone who takes sensually experienced reality and turns it on its head just because she fears it:
The fluid becomes static.
The uncertain becomes certain.
The changing becomes unchanging,
The mortal becomes immortal.
The multiplicity becomes oneness.
The real becomes unreal, an illusion, and the fantasy becomes a more "real reality".
This world becomes a staging point towards the actual world.
There are two types of nihilists:
-The honest and pure nihilist, who simply denounces life and the world as inadequate or unsatisfactory.
I call him the 'positive nihilist' because his negation of the world is direct and obvious.
-Then there's the hypocrite nihilist who denounces this world but dreams of a "better" one...in fact he is certain of its truth.
He's a 'happy' nihilist, a negative nihilist as two negatives result in a "positive".
Christians are full of 'cheer' and 'good tidings'. It's how the meek those who would never have been born at all or survived long enough to wonder about what the world is, comfort themselves that they 'deserve' life, no matter how unable they are to cope with it outside human constructs such as religious myth, social sheltering, cultural conventions and affirmative action inebriation.
When you denounce war and violence and superior/inferior and male competitiveness, you are, in fact, denouncing all the elements that made humans dominant in the animal kingdom.
this is anti-nature, in the form of self-hatred. You hate what this past made you out to be and so you pretend that it does not matter; you dream fo changing it, in fact annulling any future manifestations of you or people like you.
That you worship peace, love, brotherhood, humanity, altruism, oneness, God, is an indication that you now want to change the rules that made you possible, thinking that this will not change anything other than it will make things "better".
See, the future, being forever in the unknown future can be imagined, hoped, as being anything. The more detached it is from the past, all the more soothing, and promising it is for those who feel their won inferiority and vulnerability and cannot cope with this self-awareness.
So called "progressives" are really conservatives,a s they wish to return man to the primordial soup of undifferentiated, uniform nothingness.
Change requires no effort as it is a part of the towards entropy, the fragmentation we call the arrow of time.
It is order which requires effort,energy, resistance...masculinity.
One more example of how the nihilist turns reality on its head.
A so called "progressive" wants change, he thrives on the ideal of change, because he hopes that this always leads upwards...when in fact entropy means fragmentation and a decline towards chaos. So, all he truly wants is to surrender to the flow of change, which occurs whether he wants it or wishes for it or not. He is a conservative in that he wishes to conserve the natural flow and destroy all resistance, all ordering, which reacts against it.
In some of its form,s a progressive dreams of immersing himself in the void, the emptiness, the void....or being a minion, a nobody, in God.
To surrender rot god is a form of emasculation, for men, for He is the notion of the absolute male. Females are naturally drawn to Him, for nature is a flow towards fragmentation and the absolute void which is never attained.
Notvacka wrote:Oh, I wouldn't presume to something as grand as overturning it, and certainly not me alone. But yes, I dare to dream. And I do change reality. We all do. Planting a tree or cutting one down is changing reality. We all change the world in some small way, and are changed by it, for better or worse.
I know, little girl. and your dreams are always of changing others, the world, not yourself in relation to the world...but the world in relation to you and your fears and your hopes and your preferences.
Notvacka wrote:Of course. That's what ideals are for.
WHAT?!!
You have got to be kidding me?
You didn't just say that, did you stupid?
Ideas, twat, are mental models constructed by taking sensual data, finding patterns in them, and creating, using apriori methods an abstraction. this abstraction can then be projected into the future or the unknown.
See, we are all projecting, sweets, only some of us are doing so without their emotions and delusions clouding their analysis and injecting their mental models, their abstractions, with garbage.
Ideas are not ideals, you idiot.
My idea of life as being mortal is not my ideal.
My idea of my self is not my ideal. It is that it is NOT my ideal that makes me strive and struggle and suffer to become more.
Notvacka wrote:Not at all. My view of God is not the conventional one, but I think that's a bit off topic here.
Who the fuck cares about your little mystical nuances, sweets?
You believe in an absolute consciousness.
You are HIS bitch...or a figment of HIS imagination, if you ascribe to the idea that you are a part of Him and he thinks you into Being.
You require Him to give meaning to your suffering; you require Him to make your life have purpose.
Because you are too weak, cowardly, stupid to offer yourself meaning and purpose.
The moment you claim that there is a superior then all your actions do not matter; you are absolved, you sins forgiven, your weakness do not matter...this is His gift to you, you imbecile.
He makes you feel better about how pathetic you are.
Notvacka wrote:
Weakness is merely a lack of strength. Shared weakness does not result in more weakness, but less. And where you see weakness, I see strength. If the weak share what strength they have, they become stronger together. Furthermore, there is no shame in weakness, unless you pride yourself of strength. Pride and shame are two opposite faces of the ego. If you let go of the ego, there is no shame in anything.
See what a self-hating bitch you are, sweets?
Ego is a word derived from the Greek (εγω) meaning
self. If you denounce self then you denounce what makes the experience of living...which is need/suffering.
You would rather be nothing than suffer and need.
Sweetie, they've trained you to be ashamed of yourself; they've trained you to thing being self is a bad thing.
Idiot, all acts are acts of self, they are selfish. Even when you kill yourself it is you acting and so you are acting in accordance to what you think benefits you.
When you dream of being God's bitch it is your ego that does this...an ego so frail, pathetic, cowardly and sickly that it cannot accept itself.
Notvacka wrote:Perhaps. Fancy yourself as the wolf then. It's just a metaphor anyway. If you follow the metaphor, you see that the wolf serve the sheep by culling the flock, while the sheep serve as food for the wolf, one as much a prisoner of its own nature as the other. Notice, however, that the sheep can do without the wolf better than the wolf can do without the sheep. As for slaughter, everybody dies.
What a sad creature you are.
A slave claims that being a slave is just as good as being a master, because the master exploits the slave and so he needs the slave.
In a world with no absolutes - including your God that makes you slavishness into a virtue, like a good despotic solipsistic, nihilistic deity that He is - what you strive towards is your essence.
You can never be omniscient but if you strive towards knowledge then this is a part of your persona, your character, your ego.
Therefore, you are proud of being a sheep, you love being one, you find meaning in being one, you find clever ways of comforting yourself before a wolf that exploits your weakness...and so you can never be anything but what you are...a sheep.
Never change.
It suits me that way.
Ta, Ta,