i had a horrible nightmare. pulling off the side of a road, i swear it was in Montana, looking for a room in a hotel but things got very very confusing and wierd... it was just me and my youngest son. essentially, the whole thing had alot of good and bad in it, and fine lines where you couldn't tell which was which, there were people of various nationalities, and all sorts of crazy shit was going on, and it was very very difficult to find out who, if anyone was honest or your true friend or not, and i kept worry about my son, and he would occasionally appear and disappear while running in and out with all these other children, and i kept feeling so worried and scared for him, but then i kept seeing he was playing and having fun and happy, and so i would be temporarily but not entirely falsely relieved, and again, while inside this place, that was more like a, how do i describe this, a hotel area that was not a hotel, run down, different buildings, something, i don't know, but essentially the goings on were just nuts and confusing and awful feeling in the heart and messed with your mind, and it was an international atmosphere on the edge of a small montana town.
anyhow, at the end of the nightmare.. troops came in and lined everybody up and oh my god i can't tell you what they did. i almost want to, i can't. it's worse than any horror movie you've ever seen. it was worse than horrorible. worse.
i was running around looking for my son frantic and i thought they were going to do it to us too, and they were for a moment, and then for whatever reason at the very end it didn't happen to us, and i woke up.
i just took this as just another 'one of those wierd nightmares' and blew it off entirely. this was a few nights ago. today, i wrote in another post how my son clicked on some random video on the front page of youtube, and i watched most of it, i didnt' let him, he only watched the beginning, and i told him to go do something else positive and i watched most of it, and the contents of my dream were revealed in that video.
one of the other many times this has happened, on a lighter note, was one that was a positive one... just a normal one. i dreamt of something vividly, 'to the tee', and it happened the very next day in real life, 'to the tee'. absolutely, entirely and completely.
i could go on, but i won't.
i want to mention this, just because, i don't know why... but i believe it was the day after the nightmare 2 words started permeating me again. you'd be surprised how skeptical i am. i challenge these things when they happen. they always end up finding their place, even when i try to drop it or ignore it. i try my very very best not to derive any meaning from them through myself, unless it appears very very clear.
but anyway, this one was 'in spring', or 'eigsprieg'... i kept saying to myself... 'eigsprieg?' never heard of that before, so anyways 'in spring/eigsprieg'
i'm going to leave something out that i thought what it might be and keep it to myself, i felt that was too ambigous, and i let it go, finally, i think it was yesterday actually, i typed in those words on the net, and what i found was that it meant, 'the mirror of heaven.'
this is all i got about that one. make of it what you will, or ignore. i'm telling the truth. have nothing to gain by it. don't want money or fame, and all i will get is people calling me a nut. so what do i have to gain. anyways. there it is.